Sunday, August 23, 2009

I Miss You - Aaliyah.

oh damn man, ni sumpah sedeh. letak gmba2 sume. i know i you feel. ive lost someone really important in my life for a week pon macam gila babi sial uswh dh nk mati! HAHAHA. i know its hard man!!! :'( sumpah kt teringt time kt! awk ni sebenarnya kuat wk. awk bandingkan lah diri awk n kt time tuh. awk atleast awk bole sembynyikan sume tuh. kt? terus xklua bilik sume. awk mmg kuat. kt tau. awk dekatkan diri ngn Allah jer wk. insyallah dier akan tolong awk ;) dont worry! i know you can move on. mungkin bukan skrg. tp nnti. skrg awk kene saba. saba saba sabaaaaa sgt! - Uswah commented on the post below -


Mungkin betul, i am strong. I can hide all my feelings. I can cover it up with my feelings towards Abang Kedah. I can still smile, i can still laugh, i can still pretend that its normal. Its only outside. Outside. What about the inside? Until when? Until when should i pretend? If dekat sini pun i kena pretend, i memang dah tak boleh hidup. Im not a robot. I have feelings. Im not strong enough. Im tired of pretending. Can i just go straight to you, menangis, meraung & begging you to come back to me? No i cant. & i shouldnt.

I penat untuk senyum, i penat untuk gelak sebab i tahu semua tu hanya lakonan semata mata. If only i could bring back all those memories, all those words from you. If only all these things wouldnt have happened. If only i knew my boundaries back then. If only i knew you & me will never be possible. If only ... If only. If only i am now with you, if only i could touch you, hug you, kiss you, listen to you. Tapi semua tu if only. & semua tu takkan menjadi pun.

I terfikir, apa yang i rasa, does it apply on you too? You rasa tak apa i rasa? Sebab you cakap baru baru ni, terlampau banyak kenangan, susah nak lupakan. Its easier for you, rasanya lah. You bayangkan i. Please bayangkan. Ive missed you a lot. & you takkan pernah boleh bayangkan apa i rasa. Tapi im trying my best to be strong, at least to be strong in front of you. & yes, i succeed. Sampai you boleh terfikir yang i tak nak kawan dengan you dah. Tapi tahu tak betapa susahnya i nak buat macam tu? TAHU TAK? :(



P/S : I LOVE YOU - Listen to that aaliyah's song. Seriously, it is equal to what im feeling. :')

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