Sofia Farhana Mohsen

Have you guys heard about The Gossip & Art vs Science?

2011-09-29T12:11:00.001+08:00

The Gossip & Art vs Science are 2 famous bands and now Heineken is bringing you guys to them live along with few of local acts at the GreenRoom @ KL Live this Wednesday, 5th October 2011.

Heineken Green Room
Date	Wednesday, 5th October 2011
Time	7.00pm onwards
Venue	KL Live, 20 Jalan Sultan Ismail, 50250 KL

Artist Line Up:

Gossip (http://www.gossipyouth.com)
Art vs. Science (http://www.artvsscience.net/)
Mini Compo
Twilight Actiongirl
Hypeembeats & Jeehoe

Ticket Prices

Early Bird : RM128 (20th August - 4th September 2011)

Pre Sale : RM 158 (5th September - 4th October 2011)

Door : RM188

Here I insert to you guys a video from both Art vs Science to intro to you guys how cool they are ;)

This is a music video from Art vs Science, (Parlez-Vous Francais) ;

& this one right up here, is from The Gossip, (Love Long Distance)

BUTTTTTTTTTT.... Heres the catch, if you guys think the price for the tickets to GreenRoom is unbelievably expensive, Im selling 15 tickets now at a very cheap price. ;) Look for me on Twitter : @SofyMohz or just leave me a comment me here on my blog. ;) LETS GO ROCK KL LIVE, PEOPLE!
If you guys are going, see you there! If not, you can get the tickets from me. ;P

***Entry for 18 years old & above ONLY!

Berbahasa Melayu.

2011-07-10T18:19:00.000+08:00

Orang kata aku bertuah sebab dapat apa aku nak,
Aku kata tak senang duduk dalam posisi aku.

Orang kata aku gemuk dan bodoh,
Aku kata aku hanya jalani hari hari sebagai manusia biasa.

Orang kata aku perasan hebat lepas tu bangga ada boyfriend,
Aku kata aku hanya bersyukur dengan orang orang di sekeliling aku.

Orang kata aku takkan berjaya,
Aku kata tunggu dan lihat sahaja apa akan jadi di masa depan.

Orang kata family aku kaya dan aku bertuah,
Aku kata semua tu hanya luaran sahaja,

Orang kata aku hebat,
Aku kata aku hanya makhluk Allah swt yang dicipta cukup sempurna sifatnya.

Tak kisahlah apa orang nak kata. Orang hanya nampak luaran sahaja. Sebab apa yang betul betul berlaku dalam hidup kita, hanya kita & Allah swt sahaja yang tahu. Biar lah orang nak judge, orang nak benci, orang nak mengata, yang dapat dosa mereka, kita hanya dapat pahala mereka sahaja. Kau hidup dekat dunia tak lama, kau buat je lah apa kau rasa betul. Tak ada orang yang perfect pun. Semua buat salah, apa yang penting kau buat salah tapi lepas tu kau cuba untuk perbetulkan diri. Allah swt Maha Pengampun. :)

Aku juga manusia biasa. Yang ada banyak lagi perkara yang harus dipelajari untuk dilengkapkan dalam buku duniawi untuk dijadikan persediaan untuk akhirat nanti. :)

Aku tak cakap aku ni angelic sangat. Aku pun banyak dosa. InsyaAllah, suatu hari nanti..... Bertudung lituplah aku. Teringin. Tak selamanya kita muda kan. Umur dah 20. Bila ajal datang kita tak tahu. InsyaAllah.... O:)

P/S : Dalam bilik. Macam macam perkara berlegar dalam fikiran. Aku kembali. Dengan entri di blog ini berbahasa Melayu setelah beberapa ketika. Aku rasa tenang, menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan kita. Harap entri ini diterima mesej yang ingin disampaikan. Maksud tersirat & tersurat.

Will you promise me?

2011-04-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

I know our future seems not so bright together. Not because we dont love each other, but because of something that we both can do nothing about.

So, will you promise me, that we'll cherish every second that we both have with each other? Will you make yourself impossible to forget and feed me with beautiful and gorgeous memories? Will you promise me to fight for us as long as we could and make us strong in order to lead this life together? Will you promise me that you wont be leaving me, not until we know we are totally not destined for each other?

Because everyday, I pray for our future together. How impossible we will be, I know God listens to our prayers. He knows whats best for each & one of us. But in the mean time, can you promise me, that we'll work hard for our destiny? For our future. Because baby, youre the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you more than I love myself. I know, as much as its the best feeling in the world to love and be loved, it could be the worst thing that I'll do. Truth to be told, I cant control my feelings. So baby, just to let you know, Ill try my hardest, to make this thing work. & I hope youll do the same.

P/S : If we are no longer together, just remember, its not because our love has fade, or feelings has changed. But because God prepares us someone better. Just that. Period. :)

PP/S : Thank you for every single thing youve done to me. The money, sweat, strength, time that youve spent on me. Nothing could ever beat that. No one could ever beat you. I love you, Sayang. Always have & always will do. One year plus and still counting. <3

Hello, BloggerLoves.

2011-03-25T02:07:00.002+08:00

Fuhh, rise & shine dear Blog! <3 :/

Its been quite a while since I last blogged here. I miss blogging, but my mojo of writing/blogging seems to have gone missing for ages already. :( Not that I was so good at blogging, though. Hehe.

Its currently 1.28am, 25th March 2011. SHIT, JUST REMEMBERED THIS DATE WAS MY WORST NIGHTMARE LAST YEAR! Okay, back to main topic. It is already the birthday season for Ariens, so here I take the opportunity to wish the Ariens out there a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY & DO HAVE A FAB ONE, alright? ;) ARIENS ROCK, YO! :D

As a start, I shall list down my birthday wishlist as Im gonna celebrate my 20th birthday in approximately 10 days? ( That is on 4th April if youre wondering. :P ) GOD IM GONNA BE 20, IM SO OLD ALREADY, NO NO NO! ( over acting much? HAHA! ) So, here it goes. My birthday wishlist! :)

iPad 2

iPhone 5

New digital camera ( as Ive lost my camera while went for a holiday with Mister Love in Genting few months back )

a whole set of clothes, handbags, shoes, accessories, lingeries.

new BlackBerry

a perfect date

a set of make up

spa treatment for 2

holiday trip with Mister Love

fun day with best friends & family

surprise party ( :P )

2 tickets to Bruno Mars' concert

perfume

polaroid camera

weight loss programme

BlackBerry playbook

a large amount of moolah

a new car

a good result

a good relationship with loved ones & perfect health

Maybe Ill update the list once I found new things that need to be owned. :P I know some are just plain impossible, but no harm on wishing & hoping to get right? :) But whats most important, I just want to be by my loved ones' side on my birthday & just to feel appreciated & loved. ( BUT NOT THAT I AINT HOPING FOR ANY PRESENTS K! HAHA )

Oh well, I shall fin the post here. Ill update again once I have the idea to blog. Till then, PLEASE DO TAKE NOTE ON WHAT I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY & take care. Have a nice day, week, month, year ahead, babyloves! :) <3

P/S : The wishlist is open from 1st to 30th April. Even for the whole year. :P

My own perfect people!

2010-12-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

Something happened last night. & at first I only had a very creepy & stupid conversation with Iylia Adreena alone. Turned out, after a while, I got text messages & calls from Arlina Arshad, Nik Mohd Syafiq & Saiful Anwar Mubarok. & those tweets from Nazrin Abdul Wahid & them people who were so worried about me. Azihanie Mahamood was also there for me. I seriously feel so loved with their concerns. They really proved to me that they are my forever bestestestest friends! They are basically my siblings that I chose. Our 6 years of friendship is still standing strong. Im thankful for having them. Eventhough we only get to see each other once in a while & most of the time is when they are having their sem break, I still think they are always there for me. Like people say, "Jauh di mata dekat di hati." Once we see each other, everything just seems so perfect. Thanks so much, for everything you guys. I love you guys, forever & always. <3

KAU ADA KAWAN MACAM NI? AKU ADA! :D

0216am.

2010-11-28T02:19:00.000+08:00

I went for a Mamak session with a group of friends. A friend of mine is kind of in a crisis now. Talked about things, then suddenly he replied my tweet, the one that I asked him to be strong. He asked me, 'Will you be my girlfriend? Pwease?!!!' Guess what? Immediately, my heart seems to be longing for that sentence since February. Yes, Ive been waiting for that very sentence alone, from someone that Ive been waiting for since then. I replied the tweet with 'omg someone is asking me to be his girlfriend! Lolololx!' HAHAHA :) He replied me with 'can u? I really need you right now.' Asked him how badly he needs me, then he replied again with 'need you like no else needs you.' Then we talked, he said, I cant even remember how does it feel when someone said that to me. Then it hit me, its been a while since Mister said those sweet things to me. I remember, seriously, January till February were the only times he said those things. I also cant remember how happy it could make me when someone told me that. You know, the feeling you get when someone asks you to be his? The feeling you get when someone tells you he loves you? The feeling you get when someone tells you he doesnt want to lose you? I miss that feeling. Now, what I get is always mixed feelings. Insecurities. Heartbreaks. I dont know whether Mister still feels the same way like he did then. Fyi, Mister is not my boyfriend. Hes someone that Im in love with. I dont know where I stand in his heart, but in mine, he is like my boyfriend. Hes at par with the boyfriend title. We are kind of like in an open relationship, to him. But to me, Ive given my full commitment to him. The only thing is, I dont acknowledge him as my boyfriend & most of the people dont know about us. I know, it hurts. Because when he leaves, he will leave just like that. But whats cooler is, I love him too much to walk away. He has given me the greatest of all bittersweet memories all my life. He has been my priority. Ive given him all my heart. The only thing I want from him is to be treated equally. I gave him my time, love & heart. But what I get? Nothing. I dont know what else could be done. Maybe he has put a spell on me, maybe just maybe, hes the one. I dont know. What I know, I WANT HIM TO BE MINE. But the reason that we cant be together is because hes afraid of what others may think of him. Yea, I get it. But why bother? Hm. Maybe Im being too emotional because Im at the time of the month. Or maybe Im lack of love. Sigh. I want us to be together. So that, people will know I have you. You have me. You used to say that you dont want anybody else other than me. You know what? That was the best feeling. Now? I dont think Im that important to you anymore. Im nowhere near your heart. How I wish I could turn back time. & erase all those mistakes. Sorry if this entry bothers you. I gotta let everything out somewhere & here is the perfect place for me. Thanks, Blog. Youre always there. I love you.

P/S : To YOU, I hope I didnt offense you in any ways. I just wanna let things out. I love you. & how beautiful my life would be if I could really call you mine. :')

PP/S : I promise myself, after you, there wont be another guy. At least after I know that guy really can make me the happiest woman alive by calling me his. Without even thinking of what the society may thinks. :)

November.

2010-11-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

Its November already. How time flies. :) & what I know, Ive been through a lot this year. & I mean it! Ive been up, all the way up & down, to the utmost down. But nothing makes me stronger than whatever has happened to me. Of course I dont lead a perfect life. But at least, Ive got everything/everybody that I needed, with me. Always. Forever. As for my family, so much has happened between us all. But Ill always love them. Because whatever it is, they will always be the one who will always be there for me through whatever. Friends? They are the best! They helped me to get through my hardest times & they are always there to put a smile to my face. Love you guys to bits. & as for the love life? :) It is complicated. But what I know, he is always there for me. & he loves me. Yes, I dont deny that weve been arguing, fighting, not talking & even hit each other every now & then. But hes still there. Here. With me. We are still standing strong. & yes, we are still not exclusive. We are still having that SECRET relationship. If its even a relationship because I dont really know where we stand. But what the heck? Whats important is I know his closed ones know about me. & my friends & family know about us. :') Hmmph. I feel that this year has been ticking too fast. Sigh. :') Im in Sem 4 already & having finals in less than one month time. Everything is different but Im loving it. & OH I NEED A VACATION! Seriously, that would really complete my 2010. Okay bye. Gonna study now. By the way, you can find me on Tumblr & Twitter. :D Follow me. Have a great 2010, Loves. <3

Happy 19th, Nurazihanie Mahamood.

2010-10-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BLOGSPOTTTTTTTTT! :D :D

Waddup? :D

Okay, I know its 21st October 2010 but the reason Im posting this post is for a birthday shout out to Nurazihanie Mahamood. :) We gave her a surprise to her on 17th October 2010, a day early as Saiful & Iylia had to go back to UiTM to settle their college stuffs. Well, I hope, WE hope you loved the surprise, Azie! :) & too bad Syafiq & Arlina werent there. If not, we will be complete. <3 Anyways, HAPPY BELATED AGAIN AZIE! Hope youll lead a great & blessed life ahead. Thanks for being the best girlfriend ever! Love you & rock onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! :P

P/S : We were so creative. Instead of flour, we used serbuk kunyit, curry & soda. :P

Bullsh*t!

2010-10-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

Im feeling a lil bit light-headed. Im down. Im stressed out. Ive been crying. These past week, hasnt been a good one for me. Weve been fighting/arguing A LOT. We make up then we argue again. Its been like that for every single day. Im seriously so very tired of this shit. Youve hurt me so much, so many times. Youve been saying that you want to move on from me. You want to end this thing. Now it got me thinking that you really want it. You did say that you love me, but is this how you show someone that you love her? Youve changed. Youre no more the guy that I used to say 'Hey, Im sure he loves me. I trust him. Aww, hes so sweet. Oh, he would do that for me? Aww, he feels guilty, oh he really loves me.'. No more this guy now. Youve been that guy who couldnt care less on how would everything make me feel. I care about how you feel more than I care about mine. Like just now, why would you even lie to me? You said you were replying something but I could see from the reflection of your spectacles that youre actually ending 2 chats. Why would you even lie? Why did you even swear? Youve been lying to my face for too many times already. & Ive been that stupid blonde girl who actually forgive you everytime you do something wrong. Now Im positive that you really want to end things with me because you want to find somebody else. How could you even have the heart to do this kind of thing to me? What have I done to you? I know Im not perfect. & Im sure Im nobody near the girl whom you used to fall in love with. I used to be okay with whatever youre doing, whoever youre going out with. But seriously, tell me, how do I even trust you when youve cheated once on me? Thats unforgivable. Half of me asks me to move on & another half just ask me to break down & cry. I dont know which one to follow. I dont want to give up on you just yet because youre special. But if you really dont want me anymore, what more do I have to wait? Youre giving me those mixed signals. Half of me says you really love me & want me in your life but you have your reasons on doing that to me. & another half says that I really have to move on from you. Oh God, help me please. I dont want to be caught in such situation anymore. Sigh. & I promise myself, after you, I wont get anywhere near attachment. Not going anywhere near love. Im done. Im done with all this bullshit.

Last man.

2010-08-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hello, earthlings! ;)

Its 1035pm, Wednesday, 25th August 2010. & at this time, im at the dinner table, looking at this screen of my red HP netbook, with many things going around in my head. All the good & bad things. Memories. Future plans. The faces of my loved ones, the past. Everything. Everything is gather around now, talking and making conversations with me. But i, i decided not to care, i decided to blog. About the only thing that ive been feeling, that what makes me feel so happy & alive. About this one particular man. A man that ill never get enough of. So, feel free to read or maybe just close this window. Because i know this has got nothing to do with anyone. But im just feeling like sharing something, with my blog as ive been abandoning it for more than a month. :)

I tweeted just now, on Twitter. The tweet goes like this ; "After you, I promise ill never love again. No matter what happens, you'll be the last. That's how big my love to you is. #SFM :)"

Its true. Im sure, after you, ill never find another perfect man for me ever again. Im not denying, of course if ever youll be leaving me, someone will come, enter my life & colours it again. But i promise you, youll be the last man im going to love. With all my heart. Youre just different. Of course there was a bunch of guys that have been in my life. But to be compared to you? They are just the passerbys, that brought me to you. & i must thank them, actually. Ive loved, ive been hurt, ive been aware of what love means & brings. But you. You are so different from them. There you were, gave me a whole new meaning to my life. Sure, you did break my heart, you made me into tears, you made me angry, everything. & sure, we do have ups & downs, but still, we managed to get through EVERYTHING smoothly. & none of the obstacles, none of them would be the reasons for me to leave you behind. Nothing would make me want to move on from you. I dont care what others say. I dont care, at all. Because to me, whats important is, for me to be happy with you. You bring out the best in me. You make me feel alive, happy. Youve changed my whole perspectives of life. You love me for who i am. You love my flaws. You love me genuinely. I know, im not a perfect lady for you. But who are we kidding here? Who is actually perfect? Im happy with you, youre happy with me. We are both comfortable with each other, we complete each other. What more to ask? :) Nobody would ever get to break me apart from you. Ive learned to live with you by my side, always. So now tell me? How do i learn to live without you? Well, im sure, one day, we will be apart. But i promise you, youll always be close to my heart. Nothing is forever & as we are still together now, promise me, to cherish every second that we got with each other? Because every little nano second is important & meaningful to me. Thank you, for everything. Youll always be MY MAN. The owner of my heart, now, always & forever. :')

I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD MEANT THIS MUCH TO ME.

Je t'aime, mon cheri! ;)

Yours truly. ♥

P/S : Happy 1st year, 170810. :)

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!

2010-07-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

GOTCHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I have none.

Okay, bye! :)

Oh yeah, its 19th July.

Its Arlina Arshad's big day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TWIN!

ILOVEYOU. :)

AFTER A MONTH.

2010-07-17T01:20:00.001+08:00

Hello, PEEPS! :)

Im back. But im sure im not gonna update as frequent as i used to update anymore. Ive passed the phase where id die if i didnt blog for one day. Heh. Im now on Twitter everyday. So, do follow me there ; @SofiaMohsen. :) Anywaysssssssssssss. Hows everybody doing? Im doing great. For the past one month that i didnt blog, ive been so blessed with so much things. So much things have happened in my life. From worst to great. Too much to update each & every single thing. I thank God for everything. Hmph. & im loving July already. So many events to attend, so many works to do. Ahh, what a life! Blissful life. :') & those pictures up there are a bit of events that happened in my life. Great aint it, when you actually can tell people how happy you are? 2010 so far has been the toughest & greatest year ever. I really cant predict whats gonna happen next. Im waiting patiently for whatever awaits me. Of course it wont be one easy route for me but at least i hope for an interesting one! :D Lets hope for a better days ahead for all of us, shall we? Enjoy life to the fullest! We may not know whats gonna happen to us tomorrow so make sure you appreciate today as its gonna be your last day on earth.

XXOO

P/S : OH YEAH! I am now bracessless already! :( After nearly 3 years living life with bracess, im feeling the awkwardness not wearing braces. & I MISS BRACIE BRACES ALREADY.

BBS ; Be Back Soon.

2010-06-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

I HAVE LOST MY INTEREST IN BLOGGING! :S

SO i guess, ill be back.

Soon, i hope!

Till then, TAKE CARE & HAVE A GREAT 2010, everybody!

:D :D :D

From,

Yours Truly. ♥

GBS FOR LIFE!

2010-06-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hello everybody. Well, it has been a week, more or less, since i last update this blog. Mhm before i go a lil bit further, let me welcome June & wish you guys HAPPY JUNE first. I hope June is gonna treat me good because i had a very good opening for it, so far. :) Well, my May was hectic. It was a little bumpy at first but i got through it very well & i managed to still smile & laugh until now. Thanks for those who involved. :D

Well, as you all can see, i dont really have that much friends. & i dont mind not having thousands of friends because i know, the friends i have now are enough to keep me smile & worth keeping for the rest of my life. Of course there are times we dont feel like talking & seeing each other, there are also times where we dont get along so well, have the fights & arguments, but hey! Who are we kidding here? Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, inikan pula, kawan - kawan dari FORM2. :) Whatever it is guys, please do know that i really love you guys so much! You guys are my GBS for life. No matter what happens, i want us to keep this friendship till we all get married, have grandkids & all. :)

Saiful came late, so hes missing in this picture.

My GBS ♥

*I City, 3rd June*

I miss you.

2010-05-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

Sofia, can i say something?

What? :O

I miss you, seriously!! :'(

Sumpah?!

Sumpah

You cant imagine how this made my day. I miss you too! So much. :'( & i hope i could be with you right at this very second to hug you. But its okay! I shall see you soon, love! :S

Thursday + GBS = Fun!

2010-05-21T00:59:00.001+08:00

Went for lunch at Strawberry Field with them & had to wait for 3 hours for NOTHING! & yes we are still annoyed by YOU, Mister Saiful Anwar Mubarok. Change your attitude please, thank you! :) After that, went to Amp Square at Pyramid for a 3 hours karaoke session. & yeap, we had a very good nearly 9 hours together. Thanks for the lovely day & next plan ; AIR TERJUN please? :D

P/S : Sumpah rugi, Azie + Arlina + Saiful for not joining. We missed you guys. :')

True love story.

2010-05-17T10:59:00.000+08:00

I cant promise you forever. Neither can you.

I cant promise you happily ever after. Neither can you.

I cant promise you marriage. Neither can you.

I cant promise you im the one. Neither can you.

But what i can promise you ;

My love for you is never fading.

You would always be my hero.

My everyday life, revolves around you.

My happiness is always depend on yours.

I believe in fate, i believe in destiny.

One day, youll come to realize, that what we have is everything you ever wanted.

What if we are meant to be?

I dont want to fight the fate, i hope you dont too.

I love you, no reasons needed.

I know its pure, its love & not lust.

Because i just love you & nothing could make the love disappear.

We have great chemistry, we understand each other, we complete each other.

This aint no opposite attract, this aint no game.

This aint no fairytale, this aint no drama.

This is a true love story, of moi & you.

Ill be waiting, even though ill be called the stupidest creature on earth.

Because this is the real deal, love makes us crazy.

Lastly, I love you so much, Mister Alligator. ♥

M is for Mother.

2010-05-09T01:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Mothers Day, Radziah Ismail !

I love you.

Youre the best, the coolest!

Thanks & sorry for everything!

xxoo

♥

When In Rome.

2010-05-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

I love Josh Duhamel, by the way. :)

Well, I watched this movie last Tuesday & guess what? It made me cried. Lame right? I know. I think its my first time crying watching an English romantic comedy. To top it off, at cinema. -_-' & it wasnt just for a while. I cried when the movie started for 20 minutes till it finished. I told my sister, Wewin I cried when I watched this movie. She was surprised & she said when she watched this movie, her heart smiled & you know that kind of feeling, those berbunga bunga feeling? Yea, she felt that. & Saktia didnt cry too. I guess Im just one lame & loser girl for crying while watching this movie. Hahaha. This movie was good. I mean, worth watching lah. :) Oh & actually, I cried because I could actually felt what that girl feels in the movie. The only difference between me & that girl, in the end, she got the boy she wanted but me? Im still standing here, alone. :') Not having a happy ending. Hihi. Well, I posted this just to humiliate myself & tell you guys I cried watching a romantic comedy. -_-' & my best friend laughed at me for crying when I watched this movie. Ah whatever! Only me understands. :') Okay bye!

Finals over!

2010-05-05T03:09:00.000+08:00

I dont know why but I dont seem to find the perfect reason for me to blog here anymore.

I have my own private place where I could tell everything to.

I have my own people to tell my secrets to.

What more would I wish for?

I have everything that I needed, for now.

Not really, I want you but I never get the chance to fulfill that one hope & dream.

Ill be back soon, with something I hope.

Ill update the Fashion blog once ive found the right time.

I miss my GBS, like so much!

&&& OH,

IM DONE WITH FINALS!! :D

Merepeeeeeeeeek kerepek kentang.

2010-04-28T11:33:00.000+08:00

Good morning, mother Earth & the creatures! :)

Today i have Business Communication paper later at 2pm. Now its 1122am. Was sleeping around 2am last night but i cant remember how. I was just lying down on my bed, suddenly its 645am and my head was already down half of the bed. Get what i mean or not? Ahh, malas nak explain. Hehe. So then i was so sleepy then i went back to bed. Now in a proper way of sleeping. Haha. Got up around 1030am thinking 'What day is it today? I dont have paper right?' Because the weather was soooooooooo nice if i continue sleeping. Seriously, it is still. I feel like going back to bed yaw. :( Okay, seriously i dont know why am i blogging about this. It feels like .... So wrong & stupid. Maybe this proves that i actually need a significant other? Bahahaha. Okay not. Im happy the way i am now. :)

OH & YOU KNOW WHAT?! Iylia is sooooooo sweet! :') She can be like a mother to me already. Was so worried about me being all emotional on twitter & FB. :P Thanks darling. Im missing you guys more & more each day. Come back home to Mama please, fast! Pronto! Hehe.

Okay i think i better stop blogging now. Its getting more & more & moreeeeeeeee ridiculous. HAHA. Mhm & i have to prepare for paper later too. Lalalala. Tak sabarnya nak habisssssssssssssssss! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG! :)

Bye!

HUGS

2010-04-27T02:40:00.001+08:00

I NEED A HUG & SOMEONE SAYING ;

"Its okay, Sayang! Everything is gonna be just fine. *with a kiss on my forehead*"

I need to be with someone who knows how to calm me down.

Someone who loves me & knows that my heart & myself is fragile.

I need someone! :(

Okay i sound so pathetic. Like a desperate girl like that kan? Shut up! Im not in a good mood & i think im so down right now. Plus, my best friend is getting the BB that ive been wanting for so long! Since last year! :'( Okay, not his fault. But still, he could have it first before me? No fair! :/ Okay, continue!

I NEED SOMEONE WHO IS WILLING TO BE WITH ME, DESPITE THE FLAWS THAT I HAVE!

Okay i think what i really need now is just HUGS, from my loved ones.

I miss you guys. :'(

ArlinaAzieIyliaNazrinSaifulSyafiq ♥

Azihanie has done it!

2010-04-27T02:32:00.004+08:00

Yes, she has! She drove all the way to Kajang, for 2 days in a row! :D Im proud of her. Oh yes i am! Anyhow, i was crossing my fingers all the time that nothing bad would happen though. But i had to show her that i have faith in her. :P It was her first time driving a car after she got her license & i dare to say, she was pretty good for a newbie. Hihi. But still need to learn how to control the steering-wheel & park please! & she fell in love immediately with my baby BJR59 after her first driving session. How lame is that? Haha. & seriously, ive never seen a person so obsessed with driving like she is. So now, i have my own non-paid driver already. After this, ill just go & fetch her & we can switch places already. YAY YAY, MOM, DAD, I HAVE A DRIVERRRRRRRRRRR! :P

Kami orang tak sedar diri tengah final, boleh have fun lagi. -_-'

Oh & GBS, dont underestimate her arr, she has gone to KL already, fuiyo.

Kecik kecik cili api, yaw!
HAHA

P/S : Is this post proper enough for you, Miss Azihanie? -________-'

It is time, maybe.

2010-04-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

"It still got her thinking even though it has been quite awhile. How in the earth could you love two people at one time? You would say this to this one person then that to the other person. It got her thinking, do you really love this one person like how you told her? Because you know, her love towards you is so pure. If you really love her, you would still be with her & only her now. Despite the problems & complications youre facing, youre still gonna have her & only her. Because she has decided not to love somebody else, not to be with any other man. She has decided to think about you, about how youre gonna feel if she does anything. See, shes trying her very best to be with you. & to be strong for you. & to fake smiles & laughter for you & only you. To see you happy. Eventhough she isnt the reason youre happy now anymore. But like what others say, if you really love that one person, you must let him/her go. & we must not force somebody to be with us. & of course, thats what shes doing now. :’) She thinks she should stop. Stop all those feelings. Stop saying that she loves you, misses you, needs you & wants you. Its time."

Finals for second sem.

2010-04-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO :D :D

Everybody seems so busy with finals these past few days huh? I am too. :) I have 6 papers for this sem & i hope i could get at least 3.00 so that i could redeem one nice meal! Hihi.

~~Islamic Studies - 24th April~~

Financial Accounting 1 - 26th April

Business Communication - 28th April

Microeconomics - 30th April

Business Mathematics - 3rd May

Principles of Marketing - 4th May

OMG I CANT WAIT FOR SEMESTER BREAAAAAAAAAAAAK!

I miss my GBS so much & i already have so much plans for us! :D :D

P/S : Its my 200th post. Wowwwww! LOL.

PP/S : Good luck to everybody who is facing finals now. Hehe

By courtesy of Tumblr. :)

2010-04-22T01:56:00.001+08:00

She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on you. She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damm strong, but feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.

She doesn’t care if you call and wake her up in the middle of the night just to talk. She hates to argue but is good at it. Scary movies make her paranoid. She envies every cute couple. She doesn’t judge. She loves to draw little hearts on her notes. She’s free, all she want is to be happy. And lately all she can think about is you. You mean more to her than you know. She has so much faith, so don’t let go

I want a boy who will move the hair away from my eyes, and then kiss me. Who will hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. A boy who will sing to me at random moments. Who lets me sleep on his chest. I want a guy who will tell his family and friends all about me. Bring me soup or orange juice when I’m sick. I want a boy who is more goofy than romantic, but knows the right things to say at the right times. I want a boy who will call me 3 times a day if he went away. A boy who will apologize for calling too much, and no matter how many times I tell him its okay, he’d still do it. A boy who will let me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything I say. A boy who will throw stuffed animals at me when I acted dumb and then jump on me and kiss me a million times. Who will bet kisses on who could beat who on at game. Who makes fun of me just to make me laugh. A boy who will surprise me with 25 cent ring and we could have contest of how far we can spit our gum. Who will take me to the park, put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. A boy who will kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he loves my new perfume. I want a boy who, at night, who will dance in his pajamas with me. A boy who will take pictures in photo booths with me, someone who will never turn down a trip to the lake and who will play tag on the beach with me. A boy who could sit with me on the kitchen floor and eat sandwiches. Who will kiss me in the pouring rain. I want a boy who would try to teach me how to play the guitar, even if we just end up laughing at each other. I want a boy who will run his fingers through my hair, share his lollipops with me, and get along with all of my friends. Someone who would never be afraid to say I love you in front of his friends and someone who would argue with me about silly things just to make up. I want a boy who will take me to Target to just make fun of some of the stuff there. Someone who will kiss me at midnight on New Years and who will make funny faces at me when I’m on the phone. I want a boy who will count stars with me and be friends with my family. I want a boy who will stay home with me on a Friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket. Someone who will squirt water guns at me in the house after I’ve got him soaked. I want a boy who looks me the eye and tell me something serious, that was also funny and make me promise not to laugh. A boy who could make me laugh like no one else can. I want a boy who will hold me closer than normal when I’m sick, and would play with my hair. But mostly I want a boy who is my best friend and will always be there for me.

Sometimes you’re afraid to become a couple because you’re afraid of losing what you already have with that person. But life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they could have had. No one waits forever.

Marry me.

2010-04-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

Courtesy of google.com

Hello, will you marry me?

Please?!

I promise you, ill make you feel happy!

Ill love you & only you.

You wont regret marrying me.

Ill give you everything.

I promise you, we will be happy, forever.

We can go honeymoon to Paris, London.

We can hold a beach wedding.

Ill make everything seems like a fairytale.

Marry me, on 4th February 2016 please?

I love you, dont disappoint me.

Oops!

I think this should have been said by a man to a woman right?

Ah screw that.

Its millennium now.

Modern world. :)

P/S : Sorry, too much caffeine & stress. Hihi. Oh yea, finals starting this Saturday.

Favourite guy in the world!

2010-04-16T22:23:00.001+08:00

ITS ABAH'S 53rd BIRTHDAY!

I know now things have changed, 360!
& i dont like whatever youre doing & whatever words come out from your mouth.
However, Mama taught us not to leave you behind.
Mama taught us not to stop calling you, Dad.
Mama taught us that whatever things happened, youll always be our Dad.
So, Abah, i think its time for you to make up your mind & see things differently.
Think & dont be blinded by those stupid & awful people/things.
I love you anyhow.
Always & forever.
♥

Stop for a while.

2010-04-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

I think maybe ill stop blogging here for a while.

Im having a mood swing.

I think its PMS.

The red flag is cominggggggggggggg! :/

I feel happy for getting to tell everything to my private blog. :)

So ill keep on posting there.

*i hope YOU dont go log in my account everyday! please!*

Mhm, sebelum mengundurkan diri!

Happy 54th birthday beloved mother, Radziah Ismail !

I love you.

Youre the best mom, ever!

Stay the way you are & your angels will always love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! :D

:/

2010-04-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

I finally had lunch at Full House.

& thank you best friend, for everything!

*Lunch, movie, the times. Im proud to say youre my best friend!*

MY FINALS IN LESS THAN 3 WEEKS!

I should start being a nerd now, as in this very second! :/

P/S : Rasa bersalah. Dia ada hak nak marah. So what should i do? But i dont want to lose you.

The best! :)

2010-04-05T23:37:00.001+08:00

I WAS ALONE YESTERDAY & GUESS WHO CAME TO MY HOUSE & GAVE ME A SLICE OF CHOCOLATE INDULGENCE? :D

SAW KAH CHIUN!

Thanks bestfriend, & yes the cake was my dinner. Sedih kan? Loser kan? :)

& Saw Jia Sheng made my day by telling me i look slimmer. *eventhough i know he was lying!*

All in all, i had a great 3 days birthday. :)

SAYA ADA BESTFRIEND HEBAT, AWAK ADA? :D

SAW KAH CHIUN, youre the best lah!

P/S : I had a great opening for April. Good start! I love you, April. :D

Happy 19th to Moi. :)

2010-04-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

Today, im officially 19. 4th April 2010.

I had 2 days early celebration & today, the exact birthday, im home. Uploading pictures, updating this & that. & have to study too for tomorrows test. But its worth it. This year was the greatest birthday ive ever had. Thanks friends, for the surprise, tepung & all. & ive never been this happy all my life. :')

The first day, 2nd April 2010.

Had an arguement earlier of the day, around midnight with Saw Kah Chiun. Then around 730am, he texted & sounded veryyyyyy serious that he needed to see me. But he wanted to come around 1+, 2pm. But he was aware that i have class on Friday at 230pm. Then i waitedddddd until 230pm then only he came. I WAS NERVOUS, STRESSED OUT & INSERT ALL THE NEGATIVE THINGS YOU WANT. Then he brought me to Giant Putra Heights & i had lunch there. We were fighting, stressing out together, then around 4pm, he sent me home. & YES I WAS STILL STRESSED OUT because he didnt tell me anything. -_-' *& yes, i ditched Agama class just for them. Him. Oh whatever.* But i was excited because i actually got to go out with Azie earlier because she said she wanted to buy Iylias birthday present. *didnt know Azies plan was part of the plan too* Around less than 10 minutes after that, he called me then he said i left my things in his car. So then i was told to go out & take it. SUDDENLY, my GBS surprised me. Awh :') I was touched really but i cant cry anymore. Hihi. Mak penat menangis dah nyah. Hahah. They brought me cupcakes. I LOVE YOU GUYS! & thanks Saw Kah Chiun for being part of it. & later, we hung out at my house until around later in the evening then went to Summit after we fetched Arlina. & had cocktail at Iylias. Had fun that day. I love you guys! *hugs*

3rd April 2010.

Invited some close friends & family for dinner at Wau Penyu, Solaris Dutamas. Then around 12am, they once again surprised me by that 'Flour Party'! Eventhough i was all covered up with flour, i still had fun & i love you guys. Yes, still! Hahaha. To those who didnt manage to come, its okay. Ill still love you guys too. & to those uninvited ones, sorry. I was given a limit. I love you guys too, nonetheless! <3

To sum it all up, i had fun on these 2 days early celebration! & today, being at home, lazying around, is worth it. Because the fun i had for the past 2 days was very tiring! Thanks to those who were part of it. Much love to you guys, from me! 19th birthday celebration is so far, the best celebration ive had! <3

APRIL ALREADY!

2010-04-03T12:28:00.000+08:00

About a month or so ago, i did my wishlist for my birthday. I put hopes on them. But i know somehow rather, they wont come true. & i still hope for them. & i think i should just get rid of them all. Because they wont happen. At all. :')

BTW

HAPPY APRIL EVERYBODY! :)

& i had fun on 2nd April 2010. Thanks bestfriends! I love you guys long lah. Hihi :D

P/S : Will post up pictures soon. & a shout out. :)

Positivity.

2010-03-31T20:51:00.000+08:00

I AM SENDING YOU GUYS POSITIVE VIBES!

SMILE, LAUGH ALL YOU CAN.

ENJOY LIFE PLEASE?

P/S : Kakak cakap tak elok bagi negative vibes dekat orang. :)

Everything is good, so far. :)

2010-03-29T21:19:00.000+08:00

Alligator, Hot Air Ballon, Myself, Azihanie.

+ Arlina, Nazrin, Iylia, Saiful, Nik Syafiq.

I love & miss you guys! :')

Im a good pretender.

2010-03-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

Whenever im with my friends, i dont do mourning!

Ill have fun, ill appreciate the company.

Thats why, i need to go out often.

But i dont have anybody to go out with. :(

But now im healing.

Ive filled my days with DVDs.

Ill start studying soon.

Pray for me! :)

P/S : I want BB Bold. Anyone care to give me as a present? Hihi

Chin up, shoulders back.

2010-03-25T22:06:00.001+08:00

So chin up, shoulders back.

Be your old self, Sofia Farhana binti Mohsen.

Of course you can do it.

You are not alone.

You are surrounded by beautiful people, inside out.

Your family & friends will always be there for you.

Be strong, the pain that youre feeling now is just temporary.

Emo lagi. -.-

2010-03-24T13:43:00.000+08:00

I read back all of my blog posts from January 2010 till February 2010.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

I HAVE NEVER BEEN THAT HAPPY ALL MY LIFE!

Even Azie told me too, last night.

& i know my best friends agreed on me, with Azie.

How could you?

You were the one who gave me happiness & now youre making me miserable.

:'(

Tapi takpe. I gagah. Im trying to be happy now. Id love to see the old me making a come back. :D

Reminiscing old times - Part II

2010-03-23T02:16:00.003+08:00

Azie said im becoming more like a psychotic girl now. Err. Sorry. Maybe i was being too happy & suddenly im being replaced, just like that. & everything has changed for me. I mean, 360! & just like that, like, POOF, everything seems different already. :/ Thats why, theres a quote, dont be too happy. Its because of this, when something hit you hard, youve expected it & you wont be this down like me. :) Okay, the title of this post is reminiscing old times right? Im gonna post some text messages that ill always remember. By, Alligator. :') & FYI PEOPLE, ITS NOT ALIE. I know some of you misunderstood this Alligator. Its someone else. :)

sofia, wad time r u coming? just now i listen those song that u like, those picture we take together. i miss it so much. pls no changes between us? - 9th March, 9.53am. This was the day that we settled everything. We were in the car for 4 hours, talking & crying. & it was my first time seeing you cried. & the playlist & our pictures together. You still have them? :)

sofia, i sayang awk. tpi i dowan to hurt u. - 8th March, 4.47pm.

sofiaaa. pg tdo now okay? thanks for calling. kte sayang awk!!! me wove youuuu! sorry for making u hurt if i did. let cherish the moment from now. good nite! sleep tyte n sweet dreams. hav a nice rest okay? meet u in the dream. HAHA. - 7th March, 3.00am.

yela i sleep now. i shall see u tomorrow yaww! hik hik. u sleep early nk ***fiaaa! nite nite. sleep tyte n sweet dreams! don miss alligator cause u gonna see him tomorrow. n focus on ur agama k. bye sofia the ***fia the piggy wiggy that belong to alligator? HAHAHA. byeee! - 5th March, 2.07am. The day you had brunch at my house. & you met Wewin. We had Subway for brunch. & i was late to class, i thought ill be having a short test & class but you had to wait for me for 3 hours at Kopitiam. Sorry! :) Remember this day? :')

im sorry for everythin i did. im sorry there is changes between us. im sorry. whatever is it i don hope any changes. kte stil sayang awk! idk jumpe x die sok. tgk ah cmne. i miss you! i miss us n i miss our old time. - 4th March, 2.20am. At this point of time, you were still making me your priority. Now, not anymore.

why? why u x text i? why u da x care i? why u x cm dlu da? why u being so mean to me? why? whyyy? why being so cold blooded? ;-( - 1st March, 10.30pm. I remember, i was smiling & laughing when i received this text. You were too cute to be true. :)

oh ya lupe, tdi sis i thought i drunk to the max. dia tye i, u in love with sofia kn. HAHAHA. Bengong. - 28th February, 2.12am. You needed to hide our relationship from everybody. How close were we. Even from your brother. Your family of course, your friends. & they never knew about us, until now. Haih.

same goes to me. i dont hope to lose u, even i got girls with me. sorry syg. :-D im going to ***** house stay, cause my room full of ppl. - 28th February, 2.01am. See, you said you dont want to lose me, you dont want changes even you got girls with you. :( Now?!

no im not gonna leave u. y u think that way? pls no okay! - 28th February, 1.55am.

okay, i love you lots. thanks for everythin cause u cared bout me. i hope im giving u happiness. hehe. u kul bpe nk tdo? - 28th February, 1.48am. You gave me happiness. But you took it away on the 9th March 2010. I hope ill be able to feel happy again.

hahaha. syg, do u know u really sweet syg? thats make alligator melts. syg, i shall see u tomorrow morning! n syg u know wad? im tired n happy today. we competition pizza, talking bout future house n property! WOW! amazing rite. hehe. sleep tyte bebeh, hav a good rest. well, mister alligator love miss piggy wiggy so much okay. they nvr meant together, but still alligator wont eat piggy away. alligator want to see piggy live happily! byeee. :-D - 27th February, 1.49am. We went to Pavilion, watched movie *The Book Of Eli if im not mistaken, which we ended up not really watching -____-'*, we compete with each other to finish the pizza, we talked about our future house, how is it going to look like, our children, everything. OMG. I miss that moment. :'(

until tah, but not now la. sbb i xnk kn. i just nk with you with you with youuu! :-D eh ape ni, sbb u is girls so jwb je. u wan continue or not? tell me la. faster! hurm, penat sbb giving too much love n ****** to me? ok i diam. HAHA. weyh, sok pg ane? - 26th February, 11.52pm.

ouh, so sorry! ur suggestion is wrong. im happy now, so i wont go for any girls. sbb i happy je dgn my bestf. frens r enough okay! tpi kte pun xtaw nk ckp ape psl tu. mayb u should tell me the answer? sbb u r girls okay. ish. eh, i taw nape u penat today? *kening2* hahaha. a'ah tgh baring da. - 26th February, 11.42pm. I still hope youre not really with that girl. But its too late. :'( You went for girlfriends too early. I still need you 24/7. :'(

kte gado2 pun sbb psl benda ckit je. kjup je pun da ok kn! hurm, yg pntg kn, if kte bestf at least wont leave u. if couple, tgk la example i n ***, u n alie den tawu la. thats sucks okay. agi2 im so close wit u right now. i dowan to lost my happiness. so, u understand me? serious i already miss u! damn! - 26th February, 11.24pm. Dont you dare leave me. I have proof that youve promised. The one that i print screen at FB. Remember? :)

yes serious mode pls! yg pntg kn, u tawu x at least kte bestf x de ah cm gado2, if couple cmne? kne gado2 semua. anti break den x jdi kawan. yes i do love you, but i dowan to spoilt tis thing u understand x? im happy with u. jgn nk tye *** sngt la, serious mode la! ish. i miss you sofia. ok tu ttbe. - 26th February, 11.12pm.

yg pntg tdi ade lagu ape eh? never knew i needed, make me smile, tik tok n watcha say kn? yg pntg i tgh serious la giler. ish. i mean if im couple with u, den im sure will hurt u. but if v r not couple, i scare somedayp i will leave me. tu la pe yg i rse. ish. wad u think? opinion? - 26th February, 11.01pm. Oh, fyi, i copy exactly like what he sent me. :) Sorry, for the typo that he made. Erm. Youve made your decision to not be with me. Dont leave me! EVER! Oh & this moment was one of the best. We were doing our thing, all of our songs were played non stop & there was even fireworks! Hmph. I love you!

sofia, thanks for fetchin me. hope u happy today. the way we racing to finish the pizza? HAHA. sorry to make u cry. yes, i do scare somedays i will leave u, but i don hope n i dowan too! because i know u r not really tough actually. u r easily to break. drive safely okay. im happy the day with u all the time! thanks n sorry again! kte sayang awk sngt! v outside like bestf, inside like couple. weird case gak. i xtaw nk ckp ape. LOL. yg pntg is u happy! - 26th February, 9.46pm. I am not tough. You gave the biggest impact in my life. :'( You were the best thing i never knew i needed!

soft, u know wad? sometimes u may jealous bout wad i did to other girls. im sorry to make u feel that way. but logic think, do i ever leave u? no rite! now all the time is just with you. n yes nowadays v dono y keep quarrel because of small issue, but how ever is it v still can good back. because im too sweet. :-D anyway mister alligator loves miss piggy wiggy so much. sorry for not couple with u, im scared of hurting u n v will not as happy as last time, i dowan to hav any changes between us. i hope u understand that k soft? good night! tomorrow wake up early, at 9plus? sleep tyte yaww! :-D - 26th February, 2.49am. We are no longer ALL THE TIME IS JUST WITH YOU. & we are no longer as happy as last time. & everything has changed. :'(

fia, can u call me? i miss our late night conversation. dont u miss? - 22nd February, 1.27am. OMG I REALLY MISS OUR LATE NIGHT CONVOS. I SWEAR, I MISS THEM SO MUCH.

but i dowan n dont need another new bestf, i just need u n want u! ok i promise wont make u cry k? ur prob is my prob! so u cry i also feel it, sorry! :-| - 17th February, 3.38am. So, did you feel when i cried like babies these past few days? Hmph.

kiranya u over excited la ni? Haha. Of course i wil care bout u, y i must change? My life is perfect n happy when im wit u okay! Tpi betul la i wove you. :) - 16th February, 6.50am. So is your life is still perfect & happy when we are no longer like how we used to be? & you said you will always care about me, but youve changed.

Da la tu, i already tel u everything bout how i feel so cmtu la. Pls, i hope u dpt tdo after tis. jgn excited sngt okay. Hehe. N whatever is it, u not belong to me, if 1day u jumpe 1 nice boy pls go okay. :) tpi make sure is good n wont hurt ur feeling. I stil wil care bout u as much as i can ok ***fia? - 16th February, 6.45am. The day we confessed. & too bad, you are the one who found your girl first.

hahaha. u're the best thing i nvr knew i needed. lol. tgh tipsy, pg mos xnk ah mnum anyk. - 15th February, 3.31am. WE PLANNED ON GOING TO MOS TOGETHER, but too bad the event got cancelled. Haha.

eh dah la tu, jgn syok sngt la. yg pntg thats y i ckp i hurt girl alot, so i just hope i dont hurt u too n hope ley keep my words! yg pntg i x pnah tgk u nangis, tpi i pnah tgk mata u cmne ah after nangis, tu mmg ugly cm babi kot. :-P so jgn nk cry sgt k! dah la tu, move on la! did i cure ur headache? - 8th February, 2.44am. Youve seen me crying. 2 times! :) Congratulations. Hehe.

oh man! i being too sweet to u! nape *** being so sweet rite now to tis sohai? i got no idea okay. i hope i dont hurt u. yg pntg im sorry to make u cried for the 3rd time, i just hope there is no 4th time or other people make u cry. u look ugly when u cry! so pls don cry. :-P x best pun if everyday cmtu. - 8th February, 2.38am. Unfortunately, after this 3rd time, there were moreeeeeeeeeeeeee of me crying over you.

yg pntg im happy with my life now with you. u always b there for me, u cheer me up when im down. we share everythin together n we do things together, mmg happy ah. i just worry somedays those things will happen. i xnk tgk u get hurt, sbb i now how u feel kn. anyway i try not to do that, sbb i mmg x sanggup nk u move on dri i. i mmg da hurt anyk girls, tpi i hope its not to u. i want to make ur 2010year n so on happy giler! n i nk try not to make u tears anymore. so cmtu la i nk ckp. oh man! wad happen to u ***********! ckp benda2 cm ni. ish! gila sbb sok final ke. - 8th February, 2.28am. We dont do things together anymore. Youve found my replacement. Aww :') & you said you want to make my 2010 & so on happy? Its only March 2010 & youve already made me feel like ive lost my happiness. & youve changed me from a hero to zero. So tell me, how can you make my 2010 & so on happy if like this?

u tawu x i stress dgn maths, tpi i tetap sayang u. LOL. do u get it? - 7th February, 3.22pm. This was also a flash message. :D

seriously i sayang you giler2 punye. u pls save tis msg if u syg i.:-D -7th February, 3.04pm. You were at McD & you were studying Maths alone. Your final exam was just around the corner. & this message is a flash message. You thought it cant be saved, but i can save it! & yes, i sayang you.

okay, if that u think, den that u're. :-P fuiyo, we will get married together on 25years old which is 6years from now? HAHA. - 4th February, 11.16pm. Oh yea. We made a deal to get married on 4th February 2016. Remember? Hehe :')

OKAY DO I LOOK LIKE A PSYCHOTIC GIRL? Errrr. Sorry but i just miss this Alligator of mine so much. Its okay. Ive accepted the fact that youre in love with some other girl now. But i cant accept the fact that youre changing! I miss my bestfriend you know. My alligator. My stupid sohai friend. :'( You know what? I never expect to be close to you, i mean, this close. & after being so close with you, i never expect to be in such arguements & fights with you. & i never expect us to be this distance. :'( OH & ILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE VALENTINES DAY MOVIE & TODAY WAS A FAIRYTALE SONG!

Sorry. I promise, this would be the last post of me emo-ing over him. Er! Maybe. Okay, i dont want to promise. But ill try to be happy again. Theres no use of me locking myself up in the room, crying over this matter when in the other end of the world, hes enjoying his life. My friends are expecting me to be the old me. So ill try. I will be one. Ill be the old me. Just bear with me. :)

P/S : Tomorrow ill be in KMB. For Arlina's business fair something. I dont want to put hope to have a good time, but i just want to. Im done with crying & sorts. :)

Reminiscing old times. :')

2010-03-21T15:59:00.002+08:00

Alligator

serious i blurr now. jgn nk couple sngt ok. da ckp single in 2010. x fhm keeeeee? ceh emosi kn.

January 24 at 6:55pm

Myself
TAK FAHAM. SBB I RASA U TAKKAN SINGLE WHOLE YEAR. HAHAHAHAH :D

January 25 at 6:56pm

Alligator
ouh, so u nk dare i ke? nk bet ke? u will lose to me, LOSER.

January 25 at 7:02pm

Myself

too bad, you lose! :)

March 17 at 1:25am

Alligator
things happen. sorry,

17th March at 1:48am

Myself : Happiness is now mine.

March 6 at 11:49pm
- No more. & its 21st March. & ive lost my happiness 2 weeks ago.

Myself : You feel like home to me.

Alligator
i know is me. LOL.

February 26 at 9:24pm

Myself
hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahhahaha. ok over pulak. :) yea la its u. who else. MUAHAHA -.-

February 26 at 10:16pm

Alligator
thank you thank you!! i feel so proud of myself. muahahaha!

February 26 at 10:57pm

A special post to Chichi / Alligator, February 22nd - Click it

Things i most afraid of, that has happened, February 22nd - Click it

Alligator : I must admit you were not a part of my book. But now if you open it up and take a look. You're the beginning and the end of every chapter:)

February 19 at 8:28am

- I know, im no more your beginning & ending. :')

February 17th, :( - Click it

Myself : With you = redbull, medicine, happiness, laughters, smiles. No you = headaches, sadness, loneliness. So the conclusion is, i do need you, everyday. & for once in my life, i never want to look back because the present is so beautiful with you in it. & im predicting, the future would be awesome too. Of course, with you i...n it, still. :D *pengakuan tidak malu daripada seorang insan bernama Sofia Farhana binti Mohsen*

February 5 at 10:54pm

- Now, i want to go back to the old times. I miss my times with you. :'(

Alligator : I'm glad to know ur January end with smile. I know ur previous month is not that good. How about Febuary, we shall see? :D

February 3 at 6:50pm

- My January & February were the best months in my life. Too bad, you didnt make it to my March.

January 30th. Hmph. It happened - Click it

Myself : You are the reason for everything. Thank you. I cant imagine living life without you, because youve been there for me through my hardest time. & youre here to make me happy. :') Youve promised not to leave me & im holding to that promise eventhough i know, sometimes, promises arent real.

January 26 at 10:48pm

- Yes, promises arent real. Too bad. :(

Myself : "U have value to me! :')" - Youre so sweet. HAHAHA :D Tak move on lagi.

January 22 at 11:01pm

- Do i still have value to you? :'(

Alligator
okay fine! EMOSI~!! wahahaha, loser! eh arlina, nape sofia suke ikut i eh? i rse die cm loser kot.

December 29, 2009 at 11:21am

Myself
Hahahahaha siod nye ALLIGATOR. Lempang kang! Sape ikut spe skrg? Haha

December 29, 2009 at 11:36am

Arlina
ALLIGATOR, sbb nanti ktorg dah xde. so die kene la ikut u. jage minah ni elok2 haha

December 29, 2009 at 11:42am

Myself

Awh, so sweeeeeeeeeet arlina! ALLIGATOR, bacaaaaa tuuuuu! Haha

December 29, 2009 at 11:46am

Alligator

LOL. yes ma'am! xde problem kottt. cewah cewah!!

December 29, 2009 at 11:49am

Myself
Hahahahahha dgr tu ALLIGATOR. Arahan arlina, u kene jaga i. Bahaahahah -.-

December 29, 2009 at 11:52am

Emotional.

2010-03-21T00:43:00.001+08:00

Im happy.

Not!

Im smiling.

Not!

Im having fun.

Not!

My life sucks, big time!

& im not in a favor of living my life right now, at all!

I know i should at least be thankful for whatever im having right now.

BUT,

I hate my life right now.

SO MUCH!

Id rather die, now!

Okay, NOT!

Id really love to be alone right now & locked myself up in my room.

FOR ONE MONTH!

I would really want to smile, sincerely.

I would want to laugh out loud.

I want to have fun.

Im doing all of that, but sadly, its not because of myself.

Its for everybody else.

Im trying to prove that im okay.

Im not.

Youre stupid to think that im okay. :'(

Friday, 19th March.

2010-03-20T04:25:00.000+08:00

I skipped Islamic Studies class yesterday. *its 4.20am now, so its yesterday lah. :D* I wanted to go but i fell asleep around 1pm. When i woke up, it was already 3.30pm. Haha :D Then i went to fetch Azie at her house for our date to Pyramid. I accompanied her shopping & i got myself one baju from Dorothy Perkins. Hehe. Yes, my theraphy is shopping. Went shopping with Arlina too on Nazrins birthday. Scored few clothes. Weeeeeee! & after went to Pyramid, sent Azie home then i was off to Alexis Ampang to watch Tompi perform. Omg! Hes so amazing okay! He can do voices, different voices. Bass, chipmunk. Yet he still sounds marvellous! I hope he can be my singing teacher. Hehe. Oh well, thanks for a great Friday k, Mom, Nyna & Azie?! I should continue keeping myself busy. Im okay. :) I miss you, btw best friend. Where are you? :'(

Reunited, SofiArliNazrin.

2010-03-18T16:07:00.000+08:00

We reunited, at last.

On Nazrin Abdul Wahid's 19th birthday. :D

I hope you had fun.

I love you both! :)

xoxo

How? How? :(

2010-03-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

I know ive made a promise. Ive handled it fantastically. Ive made myself proud, ive made my bestfriend proud. But truth to be told, who am i trying to fool here? I know i can fool you, my friends. But im sorry i cant lie to myself. & after i tried for so many days not to cry, last night, at last i lost to myself. I cried. Ive missed us so much. Like i said, i only have been close to you for 2, 3 months but i have memories with you more than i have memories with somebody whom ive loved.

I know youre not gonna go anywhere. Its me, myself. Im distancing myself bit by bit from you. Im sorry for doing that. I dont want to. But the feeling of seeing you with somebody else, expressing your love to somebody else after only a month of us pouring love to each other, is hurting me. You dont feel anything because you are the one who has somebody else now, not me. I know i have to understand you. & i do understand you. & i know sooner or later, it will happen somehow. But i just sometimes, i feel like, my happiness, you, has been stolen away. Its too early for me.

Things happened so fast. My heart was broken into pieces in December 09, you came to the rescue, you glued the pieces back & my heart is back to one piece. You made me happy. Then it was your time, you were going through a break down & i was there for you. We became so close since then. We went everywhere, we did everything together. Then my feelings for you grew, i confessed, you too. Then we were having our best of time together. A lot of promises were made. Then too bad, i was feeling a little too insecure. We fought, we argued. Every day. Every night. Then someone came into your life. Then it got you thinking. Then we ended everything. Then now im here, trying to hold on. Trying to be okay with everything.

We did a lot of mistake. But i know everything was beautiful. I thank God i found you. For once in my life, i know someone appreciates me. Someone actually loves to see me smile & laugh. For once in my life, i know i wanted to be yours. Till the end of my life. For once in my life, i know the love of me towards you is sincere. Unfortunately, everything is ending. I mean, our greatest moments. But i promise you, ill always be your best friend. Your ears, your shoulders. Ill be here, forever. For you. Ill try. So bear with me. Im not strong.

Note ; Even my mom realized how weird im acting nowadays. & she even realized how unhappy i am. She even said i didnt go out as frequent as i did before. She even asked about you. I wish for you to leave her, everyday. But its too late. You guys have confessed. You guys have loved each other. Now tell me, how in the world should i trust you? to keep your promises if only after a week, youve become like this with that other person? Im being a little too emotional right? Sorry. But finally, ive said everything. Everybody says to let go & move on. I am letting you go. But moving on, thats not gonna happen. Ill always be right here, waiting for you. Ill always be your piggy wiggy & youll always be my alligator. Now tell me, how could you move on so fast? & tell me, how to let you go? :'(

Superb Saturday.

2010-03-14T02:53:00.000+08:00

13th March 2010, Saturday.

It was a superb Saturday for me.

Thanks for the day, Powderpuff gang! Zoo Negara was fun with you guys. Hehe.

& at night, went to Gloria Jeans Coffee at Sunway Pyramid to watch Sunburst featuring moi sisters perform.

& now, im tired.

Good night!

Thank you God, for giving me the strength.

Alhamdulillah. :')

Pretend first then only i am gonna be just fine!

2010-03-13T02:56:00.000+08:00

Things have been tough lately for me. I am not feeling well & i had to go through a major breakdown for few days. I am recovering, good for me. Ive made the decision. Actually, we have. To stick together. No matter what. We promised each other not to change. I know its hard. But ill try. But im happy weve made that decision. At least i know, whatever comes our way, whatever happens to us, we will still have each other. I chose not to understand you, but i know, youre doing this for us. For our best. & thats so thoughful of you. Thats why im making this decision. Not to be away from you. We both can live as best friends before, so why cant we now? :) We have been for each other when both of us face difficulties in life. So why must we end everything? :D I miss being your best friend, be in good terms with you. So im starting it all over again. I dont care what my friends will say. Because i know im doing this for my best. Why should i lose someone who can make me happy, smile & laugh everyday. Right? Thanks for everything. & sorry for everything. Fyi, i never regret knowing you. Went through what weve gone through. Because all those are the sweetest memories. So far. & i hope theres more to come. Okay? & please remember our promise. Our future partners cannot get mad at us because we are close. Its like 2 in 1 package. Buy 1 get 1 free like that. Hahahahha. Okay shut up Sofia. Oh & i am loving it when we are like this. Omg! Im so proud of myself. For being this strong. :D Lets be happy! I love you, bestfriend. :')

P/S : Ill be pretending first. But i know ill be okay. Im getting there. I mean, to the feeling of being okay. Im proud of myself. Arent you? :D :D :D

PP/S : Tak sanggup kehilangan kawan baik. Semua pun mesti macam tu. Ni special case tapi. Awww <3

Life is complicated.

2010-03-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

Unfortunately, the thing im afraid most has happened. I know youll always be here for me, but everything is not the same anymore. I cant hold your hands. I cant hug you. I cant call you sayang. I cant do what ive been doing to you for the past times. Ill miss everything about you. But at least i know youll always be the same. I just hope i could be like that with you for a longer time. :'( Why life must be so complicated? :'(

Youve promised. So stay. Eventhough not as my special one, but please, be my Alligator forever. Because ill always be your fat piggy wiggy. Thanks for everything!

P/S : I think this time im gonna diet for real. Im gonna be 50kg at least, then make everybody regrets losing me. :D What say you? Uuuuweeeeeee!

PP/S : I still need strength. Im not strong. So help me, God!

Strength to believe.

2010-03-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

GOD,

Please give me strength.

I need power, i need oxygen.

Thank you.

2010-03-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

While im writing/typing this, my heart is hurting. Its like something is pushing it hard. Or maybe something is kinda ... I dont know. It feels like my heart is dropping out from my body. It hurts me. So much. My heart beats faster than usual nowadays. Is it because of .... Choi choi choi. -_-' Oh i actually know why my heart beats faster. Its because of im hurting inside, so much. Its also because of jealousy & afraid of losing. Have you ever felt like what im feeling now? :)

Well. Im writing this to actually express what i feel. I become so very sensitive nowadays you know. Everyday i have to argue/fight with my Alligator. Poor him. Well the reason im super emotional these past few days is because im afraid. Im paranoid. I know ill be losing you one day & that thought of mine is taking over me. Sometimes i just feel like getting myself away from you. But i cant. I couldnt. & i wouldnt. Youve become my source of happiness. Youve become my everything. I know i shouldnt make you my everything. But what to do, it just happened. Theres no chance of turning back because its too late. You know i want you so bad. So bad. & i cant bear seeing you with anybody else. I know thats not good. & im sorry. But you know how i feel right? & at this very second, i could actually cry thinking of you & your new friend. Because i know she may be my stand in. My surrogate. It hurts you know, thinking about how i would love to express my love to you which i know i couldnt. & it hurts me more thinking of you could mingle around whereas me, i just cant. I dont want to. Because im happy with where i am right now, who im with. However, im happy to actually know you. & i never expect to be this close with you. Thanks for everything. Thanks for the love & care. Thanks for the attention. I dont know how could i pay you back, but i know one day, youll find someone who could be your true love. :') & note to you, i never regret.

P/S : I wish im yours. Everyday i wish for that. I love you. End.

Bestfriends.

2010-03-03T23:44:00.001+08:00

Not having Arlina Arshad & Nazrin Abdul Wahid in life is not fun.

Not the same, living life without you guys.

Kita sumpah rindu korang. :(

Ill always be waiting for you guys to come home & be the 3 musketeers again.

I dont want us to fall apart.

I love you two.

Please come home come home.

P/S : Kita ada someone pun doesnt mean i dont need you guys. This is not the first time everybody has their own world. So please, lets get together!

Biggest stalker, stay with me forever please? :)

2010-03-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hello. Someone confessed today. That the person has stalked me for quite sometime already. Cool ey? Since September wey. I feel so proud. At least someone is willing to be my biggest stalker. & that someone is the person who i love the most now. :') Okay la, maybe not the most. But i love that person with all my heart. Weeeeee. Terima kasih ya awak? :') I look forward to spend my days with you, i look forward to see you everytime. Jaga saya elok elok ya awak? Kalau awak sakitkan hati saya, ramai boleh cari awak lepas tu pukul awak? Hahaha okay im kidding. :) Im cherishing my moments with you now. & i promise, nothings gonna change. For now, we will be like this. Future? Lets not think about it. Err, maybe im the only one who thinks about it too much? Okay okay shut up! I love you. <3

P/S : Saya gemuk pun dia sayang. Saya macam babi pun dia fall for me also. Saya tak perfect pun dia suka saya. Thanks for everything, awaaaaaaaaak! :')

Youre my source of happiness, youre the soul that brings out the best of me.

2010-03-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

The Way I Do - Marcos Hernandez

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
And I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do
Way I do...

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
And I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
Now I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you, baby
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
the way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
the way I do

Same person.

2010-02-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

Chihuahua, Alligator, Chichi, Handsome boy = Same person.

& yes i am in love with him.

Its getting more & more each day. :'(

But im happy with him.

I am happy with you.

I LOVE YOU :')

A long but not so good one.

2010-02-26T04:10:00.000+08:00

Its 3.13am & i should be sleeping. But here, i am, blogging. Lets try my luck now, am i able to write a good post. Hehe :)

Now, its February going to March already. So far, my 2010 has been great. Theres ups & downs here & there but i manage to stay strong. But somehow, i just miss my 2 great girlfriends. I havent seen them for quite a while & of course i miss them so much. We never update each other anymore. :( But i know you guys are busy. & i just hope we dont fall apart okay? I love you girls <3

& lets just say i am enjoying my life to the fullest right now. Sure, there are some times i just feel like killing myself, ignoring everybody & just want to be away from everybody but i still could be here, standing, waiting for good & bad things to come. I believe i may not be this happy for a long time *eventhough im crossing my fingers, hoping that it will last for long*, but all i can do is just cherish my moments now. Im creating memories *luckily they are beautiful memories*, with the person i spend my days & nights most. I am afraid, i am paranoid. What to do, me being me, drama queen. :)

No, if youre thinking that im in any relationship with anyone, youre wrong. I may look like the happiest person alive, but its not because im attached to anybody. I dont have commitment. & i dont want to look for any. Im happy with where i am, who im with. Maybe it seems that im giving my full attention to this one particular person, but we have no commitment. I can go out & mingle but i choose not to. Why? Because i may lose my Chihuahua. I know im being dumb, but what to do? I am just so in love with Alligator that i chose not to look for anybody. However, Alligator, you may go & look for you princess. Maybe once youve found yours, then thats the only time ill try & not to be so much in love with you. Sorry, now i do feel jealous everyday. & you know why. *please dont run away :'(*

Oh what about we change the mood? Hahaha. Well, time flies & ill be 19 in 1 month & 2 weeks time, more or less. Its this fast. I still remember how i was when i was in Form1, my TKC days, my first day in SMK USJ 13, everything. Now, daddy's little girl has grown up & shes no more daddy's little girl. Because daddy has changed too. :( However, i love me & my friends that have grown up. We manage to still maintain the bond of ours & i could still have a reunion of GBS every semester break of theirs. :) & i love what Iylia wrote on my wall post, "Awak. Kenapa takut? O: Jangan kau bimbang sayang,di mana kami berada, dengan siapa kami bersama, jangan kau bimbang kami tetap kau yang punya. :D ♥". Thank you Iylia, me love you & the gang! :')

Oh well. What to do. Life is short. Might as well just enjoy it to the fullest now. Do whatever you want to do while you still can. :) Theres nothing impossible. Go & get your heart broken, your first kiss, first love, climb the highest mountain, go hiking, go picnic at waterfall, go on a vacation with friends, spend days with family. Nothing is wrong, just do it. :) Go for it! *some may be wrong la. hahaha*

Most of my weekends are filled with her. -_-

She is now far far away in Kelantan. My up-to-date-in-fashion-friend :)

Singing partner, along with Saiful. Karaoke, mari! :D

& this is my crazy, bongok, best friend. :)

P/S : I still love you however.

PP/S : I want to meet Arlina & Nazrin.

PPP/S : I need to diet! -________-'

Alligator.

2010-02-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

Ill be back. With something interesting. I have a lot to say here. But i just cant. I have to keep some things private. :) Sorry this blog is getting boring-er & dull-er. HAHA :)

However, my life is pretty good right now. Incredible, in fact. Ill try to post some picture or anything later. Wait for them. Hee.

But im active on my tumblr, twitter & facebook. :D

P/S : I am in love with my Mister Alligator. I fall more in love each day with my Alligator. :')

GBS + Nazrin + Arlina.

2010-02-20T02:22:00.000+08:00

Went out with this 5 people. On 19th February. To Pavilion. Sayang korang. :)

KT was awesome!

2010-02-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

Im back & im happy. Well, lets just say the trip was awesome & as usual ; KT makes everybody gain weight. -__-' Its okay, im proud of being a KTian. HAHAHA :D

P/S : Jangan lari okay lepas masing masing dah confess tu. HAHAHA -.- Buat tak tahu je.
PP/S : My blog is getting boring-er each day. Haisho.

Kuala Terengganu, kampung halaman.

2010-02-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

Will be going back on Saturday till Tuesday. Might be having a BBQ session with the cousins there. & i hope my trip to Kuala Terengganu will be a blast. KT, wait for meeeeeeeeeeeee! Ive missed you so much! :)

Ketakutan.

2010-02-10T21:50:00.001+08:00

Im afraid. Im afraid of losing you. Very afraid. Because my life revolves around you, now. I depend on you. On everything. So please, if youre ever gonna leave me, give me some hints. So that i could be prepared. Deal?

P/S : But i hope you wont. Ever. Or at least, for the time being. Not now. :')

Adios.

2010-02-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

memandangkan saya ni bukan lah mat salleh, saya blog dalam bahasa melayu je la ye? saya rasa sekarang ni saya nak stop tulis blog. tumblr juga. untuk seminggu, tengok macam mana. nak reda kan keadaan la. nak jaga hal keluarga pulak. ramai sangat tak puas hati. saya tak panas la, saya tak kurus, tak cantik. cari la mangsa lain. kalau saya ni tak cantik tapi boleh rapat dengan lelaki handsome *ehem ehem terasa sila, lelaki2 yang rapat dengan saya. HAHA* menjadi masalah semua orang, maaf lah. bukan saya mintak. :) tapi dah lelaki lelaki tu suka BERKAWAN dengan saya. hehehe :) mungkin saya ada personaliti yang sejuk. ok tu bodoh. diam je. mak saya pun cakap tak payah layan hal remeh temeh ni. kawan baik saya, kawan rapat saya. jadi saya rasa, buat masa ni, saya pun harus ikut cakap diorang. diorang kenal sapa saya. diorang tau saya macam mana. diorang je yang penting, yang lain tu. alah, macam air manis manis. tak penting. tp hari hari saya kene minum air kosong. :) eh ni dah merepek jauh dah ni. bye la. semoga berjaya. *tiba tiba*

Stupid, dumb, idiot. :D

2010-02-02T21:21:00.001+08:00

Damn man. Were you & your friend trying to make me jealous by telling out those stories? Hahaha im sorry. But seriously, those stories didnt affect me AT ALL. :D You guys were just looking plain stupid & idiot. Haha. Im happy for you & her. Cute couple? Alolooooooooo. Patut la pun. Sebab sorang tu macam budak umur 12 tahun. HAHAHA :D & your friend? Sumpah poyo. Patut la pun korang dapat jadi roommate. Ceh. Eh i shouldnt be kutuk-ing you guys here. Sebab it will make me look dumb. OH & BTW, THANKS FOR GIVING ME MY THINGS BACK. & I NEED MY EARPHONE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! :D

February it is.

2010-02-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

I cried for you, twice.

MUAHAHAHHA. That made your day right? It was hilarious. Me? Crying? Because of you? Stupid. :)

Tapi i tahu, i nangis ke i loser ke, you sayang i! Yay!

Ok dah bye. Nak baring.

P/S : Happy February people! January was fantastic! :D

The truth.

2010-01-31T05:47:00.001+08:00

Hello. I should be sleeping now. I slept around 330am just now & woke up at 430am. Talked on the phone with ze bestfriend & now i cant continue sleeping. Damn. -_-' Its 528am now for Gods sake, Sofia! Haish. So to kill the time & make sure im sleepy, im here, blogging. :)

Today is the last day of the first month of 2010. Its kind of sad, knowing that its going to be February in less than 24 hours. Not knowing the time, its gonna be the end of 2010 already. Then im gonna be 20 next year. How time flies right? I want to be 18 forever. & when i mean 18, its the time when all the school leavers do is hanging out & finish up parents money. Hahaha. How i miss that time. Well what to do, we cant pause time. & we dont do rewind & fast forward. So what can i do is just, go on with this life.

Hmm. Have you ever felt like, you are already on the top of the world but suddenly you hear yourself screaming for help. & next thing you know, you are already on your way down, with your heart crushed, your eyes, mind & everything blurred? You know, ive been hurt too many times. Too many. Being in 4 different relationships makes me think, am i that bad? Am i that ugly? Dont i deserve to be treated as a woman, lady, girl, or whatever you want to call me? Im trauma, im afraid. I dont want to be fooled anymore. But me being me, i always fall in a guys trap. :) I have to be strong. Thats it. That is it.

I now have my own source of happiness. I have my family ; eventhough my family is not perfect but i have a loving & caring one. I have my 2 bestest girl friends ; who always stay with me eventhough they both are busy with their own life. I have my own best guy friend ; who currently listens to my stupid things everyday, laugh with me. I have my own close friends ; who never fails to make me happy & never want to see me depressed. I thank God for sending them all to be with me, through my nearly 19 years of living. I would never ask for more because i think i have enough already. But one thing makes me afraid is that ; losing all of them at once. I cant bare losing them. Seriously, ill break into pieces. So promise me, you guys will always be my favourite people. :')

I feel like crying now. I know why but i dont think ill write it here. Let it all be kept here, close to my heart. Let me be the only one who knows. Nobody else knows this besides myself. Im not gonna tell anybody about it. Well, the wall has been crushed. Now you know, im not always happy. :) But im gonna cherish this life, im gonna smile widely, im gonna make myself happy. Ill laugh more, ill smile more. That will keep me happy. All the time.

P/S : Please, dont you dare leave me now. Because without you, i know im not gonna survive. Thanks.

PP/S : Im not sleepy anymore. Shit. Whatever, sleep now, Sofia!

Maybe its because im irresistable. :)

2010-01-28T10:00:00.001+08:00

Hello World ... Hope Youre Listening .... :)

I actually should go back to sleep & wake up at 1030, or 11 the latest. But blame myself for not doing that. I have class at 12 & its Marketing. Can you imagine the boringness? Haha :)

Well just a quick update of myself, i am currently loving my life. *Did you guys notice i always say i love my life? Well i do. I love 2010, so far. :)* I am currently taking up 6 subjects this semester & i hope i could get good results for the finals. Me & Uswah are trying to push ourselves to study everyday. Except for weekends, thats the time where we get to have a break from COLLEGE LIFE. Eventhough its only second semester, we still want to do our best. My first sem wasnt very pleasant, so this is the pay back time. Hihi.

Hmm. Oh & i am currently being a tuition teacher to my bestest friend, Saw Kah Chiun. *Not that im good in Maths. Its because im too irresistable, he just cant get enough of me. HAHAHAHAHA :p* Hes gonna have his finals in less than 2 weeks, so im kind of helping him to get himself prepared for the finals. While teaching him, i could study too. & im not gonna study if im home so the idea of him bringing me out to be his tutor is the best idea ever to get me started on my plan of semangat tinggi untuk belajar. *Know what? When i teach him i feel like im clever. Why? Because im happy i can get all the answers. Why? Because those things i teach him are like the high school syllabus. & im proud of myself i can still remember. BAHAHA*

& i noticed that ive been spending too little too much time with Azihanie this time around. *Not that im complaining, its just something that i want to share okay? Haha* Maybe its because Arlina is too caught up with her KMB stuffs & Nazrin is too busy with her assignments. I hope this Chinese New Year, we could get together & menggila again okay? Oh but i dont think ill be spending much time with Arlina as shes still gonna be busy eventhough its holiday. Hmm. Oh well, thats life. We are all in college, everybody is busy with their life. But i miss them, Nazrin & Arlina. :')

Something random :-

I think we should all stop complaining. Cherish everything thats with you right now. Nothing comes twice. Everything here, is here for a reason. Whether its bad or good, you learn from it. You make yourself happy by having anything now. I know i know, im saying this because i am living a wonderful life right now. But do you know whats happening inside me? Whats playing inside my head? Whats happening to my family? No. & i have my own family crisis. But what else could i do? I just can sit back, relax, hoping for a better tomorrow. Nothing is perfect. But you can just pretend it is & enjoy life while you can. We are all borrowing the soul & everything from Allah. One day, we have to give it back to Him. So while He still gives us the chance to be in this world, appreciate it. :)

& dont forget, KARMA IS A BITCH. & jangan doakan apa apa yang buruk untuk orang. Biar Allah je yang balas. :)

P/S : I have 2 stalkers right now. BIG TIME. Both. Tapi sorang i sayang *cough cough*, lagi sorang tak kenal. Kenal la, tapi tak la kenal sangat. Hahahaha.

PP/S : Everybody seems not moving on from me & Saw. Why eh? Nak kitorang couple betul betul ke? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Okay diam.

Kawan baik ; lelaki.

2010-01-23T16:55:00.000+08:00

Sekarang ni i depend on him je. *Okay la, basically la, selain daripada my other girlfriends.* Everyday, memang selalu cari dia je. Sebab dia, i am still living my life, happily. Dia sweet, dia baik, dia hebat, dia memang menawan, dia cool, dia memang hebat la! *Okay i dont know why im praising you. :S Terima je okay? Haha* He knows how to make me laugh when im stressed out. I just feel like thanking him, for being there for me. When i was having my toughest time, he was there to make sure that im strong enough to go through my hard times. He is one great best friend. He knows his part & i know mine. We have been close since i broke up. & whats funny is everybody seems like not moving on from us. HAHA. Biar ditekankan disini, kami hanya kawan baik. :) But sometimes, i wonder, will we be like this till forever? I hope we do. I appreciate everything you do to me. & thanks for everything. I hope you wont be like some people okay? Who forgets after a while. :')

& a confession : Saya sayang awak, kawan. :|

P/S : Please dont get too excited, okay? Jangan bangga sangat. HAHA :p

Emosi.

2010-01-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

Yes, im not hot nor pretty. Im not skinny too. Im fat, im ugly. That equals to fugly. & thats me. So what right? I have my family & friends. I dont need anybody like you in my life. :)

P/S : Sometimes, i feel like killing myself. I feel like i have no value to anybody.

Rebellious.

2010-01-18T16:25:00.000+08:00

Budak budak sekarang dah maju. Bukan macam budak budak zaman dulu. Diorang sekarang suka memberontak, suka stand up for themselves. Mulut semua mulut puaka. HAHA. Bukan lah salah parents, tapi kadang kadang, budak budak tu kena jugak pandai pilih kawan. & tolong jangan batak sangat. & jangan cultural shock. Tapi tak semestinya budak KL tak cultural shock. Korang salah. Semua pun gila sekarang ni. Apa nak jadi dengan dunia ni? Haih. Dah la, penat. Sakit otak belajar accounts. Nak tidur. Bye!

P/S : Jangan terasa eh. Sebab sumpah post ni tak ditujukan to whoever la. Ni macam tiba tiba terlintas dekat kepala. :)

Current Addiction : Vodka Bottles.

2010-01-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

Look at the vodka bottles above. SO BEAUTIFUL RIGHT? LOL. I am now addicted to the vodka bottles. Oh dont get me wrong. I dont drink, i just love the bottles. Especially the red one & the rainbow colored above. :D

Hmm. & i am seriously losing my writing ability. Not that ive had one. HAHAH. :S Okay, serious talk lah okay. Hmm, i am now loving my life. With my friends & family with me, i feel like my life is complete. Eventhough its not perfect & it will never be, i am thankful that i still have both of my parents & my grandmother. The one & only. My friends who always be there for me, through thick & thin. However, i miss my high school life. I miss school ; not the study part but the part that we always see our friends everyday, not missing every single gossips & all. OMG, i so miss school a lot. :| & i miss being a 5 year old kid. :( I miss my same old Abah. & i miss being a daddys little girl. Hmm. Oh well, people change. & my dad? Hes transforming, 360 if you wanna know. :) Hmm enough about that.

I am now busy. Busy with classes, studies. & hanging outs. Lol. I have class everyday except for weekends & Tuesday. & my class on Friday is at 230-530pm. Sucks big time kan? Haish. But i hope i could get a higher CGPA for this sem. Im trying my best. I wanna go abroad. Pursuing my degree. AMINNNNNNNN! :)

& currently, im killing my time with hanging out with the bestfriend, Si Gila & classes je. I miss my two bestfriends too. & the Geng Bas Sekolah. :(

SFM.

2010-01-10T15:26:00.002+08:00

Im not sure about my feelings right now.

Anyhow, im loving every nano second of my life. :D

Boo-hoo!

2010-01-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

Ive run out of ideas to post it here. Im more active with tumblr. I rather not write much nowadays because i think theres nothing important & exciting in my writings. & with my life too. :)

Whatever it is, im now enjoying my single life. & im happy with it too. I hope theres nothing that could get into my happiness. But ill try not to be too happy. :) Hows your life treating you? Hows 2010 so far?

Oh btw, my class is starting this Wednesday. Boo hoo!

2010 it is.

2010-01-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEOPLE!

My last day of 2009 was great. Especially the part which we watched the Paranormal Activity together at Iylia's. *Iylia & Azie + me*. Ill miss 2009 but im surely looking forward on whats going to happen next in 2010. Oh, 2010 is the last teenage life for us 1991s. Hope itll be good. <3

2009 - A year full of drama, experience.

2009-12-31T01:42:00.000+08:00

As what ive told you guys, ill be writing a post, a long one about 2009. Pictures will be uploaded too. So stay tune. :) *Recap of 2009* - May i remind you, this is the longest post ive ever posted.

2009 is a year where i started my college life. But before that, we had to face SPM. After school has finished, i became unemployed, idle. It was time for me & my friends to have fun & enjoy. I did my license & finally got my license after 2 months. & the journey began there.

January - Nik Syafiq's birthday. I went to Jakarta & Bandung for a holiday with my mom & Wewin. Had fun, but didnt do that much of shopping. Then got back here, had fun, went here & there with my friends & trying to complete my driving classes. & i just broke up but still had a little something with the ex. Which is, its the current ex too.

February - Finally, have nothing to do with the ex. Tried so hard to move on. Had some fun with friends. This was the month when i knew Bjo/Amer Hazwan. & i knew Naqib too. *Where have you been Naqib?* & the most unforgettable moment was when we *Bjo, Naqib, Saiful, Syafiq, Arlina, Azie, Nazrin, Me* went to Subang Parade to just get to know each other & have fun. Pretty much, getting bored with the unemployed, makan tidur lepak life. :) Oh & i was having a crush towards a guy too at this time. Bjo. Enough said. HAHA.

March - Iylia's & Nazrin's birthday. My results were out, & it was so so. Disappointed with myself but theres nothing that would be able to change anything. Still having the life of makan tidur lepak & menghabiskan duit mak bapak. Finally me, Nazrin & Arlina got the chance to work together at Yellow Cab Pizza & Co USJ Taipan. & here is where the actual drama begun.

April - I had my surprise birthday celebration at Yellow Cab. Special thanks to Arlina & Nazrin for making it real. :) I miss that moment. Cant believe that they can actually surprise me & got me. & April was the month full of drama. I was busy with work & Arlina got herself & Azie into a phase of drama. Me & Saiful & Syafiq got ourselves into a fight too. Yes, basically, everything has changed, 360. I actually cried because of Syafiq. He was my bestfriend. I can count on him on everything. He cheers me up when i have problems. & i was shocked, sad.

May - The friendship of me & Saiful & Syafiq ended. Just like that. I was missing my friends, very much. Everything has completely changed. But thankfully, the emptiness in my heart was filled with the bond of me & the bestfriends from Yellow Cab. We had so much fun. We got very close to each other & i love every moment of it. :) & i got an offer from UiTM, doing masscomm to. *Sadly i went there for only a month :)*

June - We started off the month with having a vacation at PD. 7 of us. This trip will never be forgotten. It was fun, exciting. It was perfect & nice. :) Arlina left for KMB few days before i left for UiTM Melaka & Nazrin to Alamanda. I was spending like everyday, on the phone, hanging out with my loved ones. Especially my crush at that time. Saufi. Full stop. It was kinda sad, having the thought of leaving everything behind. It has been quite a while since i last being away from home. Last time was, form 1. I was leaving for TKC. But that only lasted for 6 months. Of course i was sad. & the last day i was in USJ, i spent time with, you know who. That cheered me up a little bit. But i was crying, the whole time. Everything is still clear in my head. :) *Thanks for the memories*

July - Arlina's birthday. I left UiTM early & went back for the weekends. I wasnt into UiTM & i had the thought of quitting UiTM. & at this point of month, problem occured. Between me & you know who. I was really down at this time. Ive loved him too much & i know ill miss him very much too. We settled every problems we had & i let him go, just because i know, it was my fault. Ive found the guts to move on. The power to still be alive. :) Thanks to my friends, they made it. They cheered me up. :)

August - I was in a phase of forgetting you know who. It was hard, i swear it was really hard. & theres this one guy, popped out in nowhere. His name is Acap. Got close to him, i mean, he was making my phase of forgetting you know who, easier. But still, i cant accept him. & i dumped him, not contacting him until now. Sorry. & lastly, i got to meet you know who & clear things again. Im happy for you. :) & i started my college life, in August too. SEGi University College, Subang Jaya. :)

September - Got together with Alie. I cant remember how can i keep in touch with Alie, again. But yes, we got together, on his birthday. I surprised him at midnight on his birthday with the help of his friends. Before that, we did a surprise celebration for Jimbet, Nazrin's latest ex. I was having the best time of my life, with Alie by my side. I was really in love with him, again.

October - Birthday of one of my great girlfriends, Azie. Still in the in love mode. But problems were waiting for us everyday. Sprained my ankle & had a barbecue at my house. Invited my friends over & not to forget. we lost our favourite cat, Sayang. I miss you. :(

November - Me & Alie faced a lot of problems already. But we were still strong. & at last, the Geng Bus Sekolah, reunite. :) Ive missed them so much. :) & im glad i can still be friends with them. Now i know, whatever ways we chose, we still gonna be there for each & everyone of us.

December - Had my finals. 3 papers. Alhamdulillah everything went well. Results? Dont know yet. Had a huge fight with Alie & we broke up. I dumped him. Everything has ended. & i posted a video of me singing, here. First time. :| Semester break, everything went well. Went out almost everyday, had fun with my 2 bestfriends. Drama with latest ex & the girlfriend. But im moving on & im okay. :) Special thanks to Arlina Arshad, Nazrin Wahid, Saw & the rest of close friends who helped me a lot. :) & RTW rocks! With Dinie, Arlina, Nazrin & Nasha. :)

Its gonna be 2010 soon. I am seriously gonna miss 2009. Like so much. Eventhough it has been quite a rough year for me. But everything that has happened, taught me well about life. Anyhow, 2009 is just another phase for me that i had to go through. Ill miss everyone that was once with me, involved in my life. I cherish every moment of 2009. :) Whatever it is, Happy New Year to everybody! New Year's Resolution? None. Love you, 2009. xxoo

Down.

2009-12-30T04:17:00.000+08:00

I know i wanted to write a post about how 2009 treated me. I will. But i think this is not the time yet. Ill write one, later. For the time being, i love being myself. & i hope ill be happy forever. :)

P/S : Sorry, blog i dah semakin boring. Nanti pasal 2009 tu i masukkan pictures sekali okay? :)

PP/S : Oh yes. To whom it may concern, congratulations! :)

Hate, Miss, Love. At the same time.

2009-12-29T03:48:00.001+08:00

I hate you, Karma.
I miss you, already.
I love you, still.

2009 really taught me a lot of things. Ive experienced a lot throughout this year. Im gonna miss 2009, like a lot. But, i know 2009 is just another phase & year for me.

I hope for a better 2010. InsyaAllah, Amin. :)

Tumblr, im in love with you.

2009-12-27T15:41:00.002+08:00

Isnt it great if Tumblr is actually a guy? Hahaha :)

Yes, ill update soon. A long one. & yes Azie, i know youre waiting for a lost post from me. Hehehehe :p

2009 is really ending huh? :(

Soon.

2009-12-26T01:57:00.000+08:00

Ill be blogging about the moments i miss most of 2009. & the best moments of 2009.

Stay with me blog. Dont hate me. Because for now, i only have few things/people who love me ;

Family, Bestfriends, Blogspot, Tumblr, Youtube.

Even facebook hates me. Facebook doesnt entertain me anymore. :(

Loser much? The reason im still alive is because to still see the faces of my loved ones. They cheer me up, everyday. I love you guys!

I have found a new love.

2009-12-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

Sorry blog, my love for you isnt fading. But i just found out, im addicted & loving something else more than you.

I love you, anyhow. <3

2009 is coming to an end.

2009-12-23T18:15:00.000+08:00

With love,

From S to A.

Ill miss you. 3 weeks without you? Thats torture. Even though we arent an item anymore. About N, you admit you love her? I mean, you said you havent even seen her yet. How can you love her? Well i guess, thats your right. Hmm & yes, like i said, you dont hurt me & dont flirt with some random girls if you love me more than anybody could have loved me. :') You love her now, of course youll love her more in the future. Whatever it is, i still love you. & have fun in CH.

Little note : Youre 18, shes 20. Anything is possible, babe. Remember my case? Im 18, hes 26? Hahaha :) I said ill never fall for a man of age difference more than 5 years from me, but look at who i was stucked with? :) Good luck with her. As long as she can make you happy, ill be happy for you. Cliche, i know. But thats life.

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Okay, i cant wait to spend my last 2 weeks of holidays with my friends. Ill miss you guys so much. :'( Nak main badminton, jom la! & jom buat photoshoot? & please, picnic dekat waterfall? && Sunway Lagoon? Hihihi :) Oh siapa pergi Rock The World? Ill see you there, biotches! <3

Hello :)

2009-12-22T02:50:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine, which i think i shouldnt mention his name, *okay, dah ter-reveal pulak its a he. HAHA :)* really wanted me to update my blog. So here i am, updating my boring blog. & yes okay fine, i wont be too emotional this time. Hihihi :)

Seriously, if you dont want me to bore you, you may just click the X button up there. :D

Well, its been a few days i didnt update my blog. I guess these past few days have been quite a drama for me. But still, i have my friends beside me which i feel so blessed having them. I still am not moving on from Alie. & i am still living my past. I miss those memories. But im lucky this thing happened to me when i have my friends here, having their sem break. I went to quite a few places with them. Having fun with them. Had tons of fun. & thanks for making my day. I love you guys. & my diet plan? Well, doesnt work out really well. But im trying my best to diet lah. Wait, wait okay? For the new me. Eventhough my friend said diet = die & he said that im perfect enough so its enough. HAHAHAHA lawak la kau. :| Oh & suddenly i have this feeling of deleting my blog. -_- Blog dulu penuh dengan si polan A, blog ni penuh dengan si polan B. Tak boleh ke i nak hidup bahagia macam orang lain? Ah whatever. Im 18 & i should live my life to the fullest. Okay la, i guess i should stop now. I have no idea & oh! Me & Arlina have this new blog of ours. Click here if you want to check it outttttttttttt. :D

Nota kaki & tangan : I love you. Why must you change? :( I miss you. XXOO

Goodbye, http://sofiamohsen.blogspot.com!

2009-12-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

I bet you guys are bored to death with all my posts kan? I guess ill stop here. Ill continue blogging when ive healed. Im tired of my situation, environment. I have 2 more weeks to be spent with my friends. & now? I dont have the mood to do anything anymore. Jogging? Diet? Exercise? Whats that? I guess ill just stop eating & blogging. Thanks, youve done it again. Be happy, be very happy! I dont need any advices, i dont need no one to call me or to even ask me whether im okay or not. Because I AM NOT OKAY & I DONT LIKE LIVING MY LIFE IN THIS SITUATION. Im crying like hell, i think its better for me to die. Oops, no no. Belum cukup lagi ibadat, bertaubat dekat Allah. Dah la. Dont miss me too much. If you miss me, just watch this video.

P/S : Thanks for making me cry. I love you.

Sayonara, history.

2009-12-16T02:36:00.000+08:00

IM NOT OKAY & I HATE YOU.

I need to get a life. I need to have a vacation. Alone. I need some time alone. I need my friends to throw me a surprise party for no reason. *ehem ehem, hint! :p* Okay, i really need to move on!

BYE!

Normal guy VS Edward Cullen.

2009-12-16T02:20:00.000+08:00

A normal guy would say: “I love you Baby!”

Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now.”

Normal Guy would say: “I think I am falling for you.”
Edward Cullen would say: “The Lion fell in Love with the Lamb”

Normal Guy would say: “You hair looks like a haystack; go brush it!”
Edward Cullen would say: “Your hair looks like a haystack… but I like it.”

A normal guy would pick a random song from a random artist and dedicate it to you.
Edward Cullen would sing you a song he wrote for you while playing the piano.

If you die, a normal guy would find another.
If you die, Edward Cullen would kill himself because life without you isn’t worth living.

(“Well, I wasn’t going to live without you..” He rolled his eyes as if that fact were childishly obvious. “..but I wasn’t sure how to do it. I knew Emmet and Jasper would never help so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi.”)

As you leave the house, a normal guy would say: “Bye, see ya!”
As you leave the house Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me, love.”

(He smiled my favorite smile. “Hurry back to me.”
“Always.”)

As you come back home, a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice.
As you come back home, Edward Cullen would be welcoming you by playing the piano with a song just for you.

(“I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadn’t touched his piano since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the door, I heard the song morph through a bridge and change into my lullaby. Edward was welcoming me home.’)

A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast.
Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.

While you are both out for dinner, a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress.
Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.

A normal guy, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio.
Edward Cullen, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to yours.

While far apart in different places, a normal guy would say: “I miss you.”
While far apart in different places, Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you’ve taken half myself with you”

A normal guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares.
Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away.

(“Do you want me to sing to you? I’ll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away.”)

A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates.
Edward Cullen buys you a car.

A normal guy does it with everyone.
Edward Cullen only does it with one.

I love you, Edward Cullen. :)

P/S : Taken from cousin's tumblr, Izadeana Kamaruddin.

15th. Especially to Uncle Nordin's son.

2009-12-16T00:39:00.001+08:00

"Youre a good girlfriend. You know how to make your boyfriend happy. The boyfriend should know how to appreciate you. Youre not the one who should feel that youre not good enough."

"Dont be too soft hearted."

These are the lines that my best guy friend told me. :) Thankssssss! These lines will make me alive, everyday!

Hey, know what? Just realized that today was 15th December. Oh wait! Its 12.22am now. So i guess, it was yesterday that was 15th December. Hmm. 15th is really my not so lucky cum lucky number = date. :) 15th December 2009 was supposed to be my 3rd monthaversary with A. & 2nd anniversary ; if we didnt broke up last November 15th. :')

~~Specially to A ;~~

I miss you, you know. Weve gone out twice since the day that i asked for a break up. Both werent any good. We wont be good friends. We arent better being friends. I need you. You need me too, so just confess. Throw away your ego. I love you. Whatever it is, ill just wait. Ill wait for the day to come. The main reason i asked for a break up was because i wanted to give you space. I wanted to give you a lesson too. How hard it is to live, to survive without me. Well, youre not handling it that good. Youll find me, once a day at least. & im happy. :') Ahh, ill wait till your finals over. The time for you to decide. Good luck for finals k? One down, 2 more to go. Youll nail it, dont worry. Youve worked too hard for it. :) See you soon! <3

Tired. My hopes are crushed. My heart is torn into pieces. Thanks for crushing my heart over & over again.

P/S : Seriously, im tired of dramas. Arent you? Lets stop people from calling us drama king & queen shall we? Now my sister is calling me that. Ish.

Guys + flirting = Stupid.

2009-12-15T03:56:00.000+08:00

What is it with guys & flirting?

Everybody is asking me, whats my status now. I guess, the answer is :-

SINGLE?

He changed his status before i did. Yes i asked for it, but it wasnt final. :) What to do, i just have to accept it.

Had this talk with Kakak earlier this evening :-

*kakak in blue, me in orange*

Doh bakpe break dengan Fazlie nye? *yes, it was kinda weird knowing that my mom & sister calling A, Fazlie.*

Dok tau, saje. *muka slamber, yang penting!*

Bakpe? Cu cite sikik.

Hmm.

Kakak rasa ofy dengan Fazlie have to talk. Sorang kene ngaloh. Ofy dok puah hati, kabo. Cakak molek. Kakak dengan Harwin ade problem sama macam you guys gok.

Hmm susoh la kak.

You have to.

Note that, me speaks Terengganu dialect at home. :) Hmm, yes, its complicated. Susah lelaki yang over friendly dengan perempuan ni. :) Its okay, if we are meant to be together, then we are. Kan? :) Most important thing, my friends mesti cakap i dengan A break tak lama. We will get back to each other soon. But this time, i think it is really ending. Hmm. Friends, help me to move on please? He has moved on. So why should i, the one who wanted to break up, still in this mourning situation? -_-

Badminton session.

2009-12-15T03:16:00.001+08:00

So my diet plan has influenced my bestfriend, Nazrin Abdul Wahid. We have a plan to go for a jog like everyday? & we were like so burning up on the dance floor. -_- With enthusiasm, we still went out eventhough it was raining. But it was already 6 pm by the time i got my car. *my mom used my car cause her car is needed to be sent for a service because of the poor condition of the aircond* Oh & then me & Nazrin figured, we should go around & find some cool places for us to jog. But then, we were thinking, it was nice too if we could play badminton. We went to USJ 23 to survey the price of renting the court & so on but we got one problem. We didnt have shuttlecock. -________-' So we went to Taipan to search for it & had dinner at Food Garden. With PG along. :) Around 9pm, after gossip-ing & rewinding back all those good old days with PG, me & Nazrin went straight to USJ 23 to start our badminton session. :D

We started our session at 930 pm and it ended at 1030 pm. Had to pay RM10 per person. So RM20 per court, basically. :) & PG joined us around 10 pm & after playing, we decided to go to Tasik Shah Alam at Seksyen 7 with PG showing the route. *will be having our jogging session there tomorrow evening! Wanna join? :D* Know what? I never felt like this before. Healthy & happy & goooooooooooooooooood! :D It was nice having PG too, when we were on our way to the lake, i realized how much ive missed those kinds of moments with PG & the gang. :') Oh & the result of not warming up : SAKIT TANGAN, BELAKANG! PERUT JUGA. HAHAH :D

Btw, i had this one conversation with my friend just now. Well, sort of. Not the exact word lah i used, tapi same meaning. *me in red, my friend in blue*

Know what? I felt so happy tadi, now i rasa macam sampah! I menyesal on FB!

Why you rasa macam sampah? Know what? Orang yang tak reti appreciate you tu sampah!

:')

My happy mood was turned into a moody one. Why? Because of FB. Well, if you know me & know my stories *as if my stories tu lah paling hebat!*, would know what am i talking about. :) You said you need me? I dont think so. & yes, someone owe me a movie date & satay kajang!!!!!! *ehem ehem* :D

K lah. Nak tidur. Penat! Okay, tak tidur sangat. Sambung stalk FB & chat dengan Nazrin tercinta. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Junk food, fast food, rice. Yummayh kan?

2009-12-13T16:07:00.000+08:00

I am running out of ideas. I dont feel like blogging, i dont feel like meeting my friends too. Why? I guess you should know. Hmm. I hope this thing aint permanent. I miss you. :'(

Btw, i seriously need to lose ~~some~~ a lot, & i really mean A LOT of weight. So starting from now, no junk food fast food & rice for me. Well, rice & junk food is fine. Fast food is like so irresistable you know. Especially McD. But its okay, ill try. My harderst. Hehehe :D

I think i need to buy a dress of size 10. To motivate me. Oh well, dulu ada orang janji nak teman pergi jogging selalu. Sekarang orang tu dah takde. :( Rindu awak, sumpah!

P/S : I love singing. Eventhough i dont own superb voice. :)

First video ever that ive posted. Yes.

2009-12-10T23:11:00.005+08:00

Well, if you can actually hear this properly, i said "im gonna song my favourite song"! WTF? HAHA, its clearly shown that im nervous. What the hell, just watch it if you want. :) Enjoy & please do laugh. I know its funny. & this is me, the current me. & oh, i love my hair in this. No reason. & if you want to hear a better version, search it at youtube for yourself. :)

Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy.

I know i said i want to post it tomorrow, but i got bored. So here it is. Specially dedicated to you guys. :)

Envy-ness.

2009-12-10T19:49:00.000+08:00

I envy those love birds.
I envy your love towards your partner.
I envy those who are having happiness right now.
I envy you, you & you.

Its not a sin to envy someone, right?

Hmm, i think i should just go & re-heat the food mom brought home for me.
Oh & maybe, just maybe ill post a video of me singing 'Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy' tomorrow.
Its a good way of embarassing myself right? :)

I dont know what are we. Hanging.

2009-12-10T13:29:00.001+08:00

Are we over? Are we done with each other?

I asked for it, i should be happy about it. Right? But now, i dont think im having the time of my life. Im not enjoying every single second of my life. Ill put a fake smile on my face. Ill laugh, ill show to people how strong i am. But you see, deep inside, i am not what you think i am. Ive planned so much, to do things together with you. I have things on my mind on wanting to go to CH, Terengganu, celebrate New Year together. But now, everything has crumbled. They are all ruined by me. Myself. Yes, i have my friends. But its not the same anymore. I dont cry, im trying. Im trying not to choose the path which i have to cry every single second when i rewind those moments. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I am now rewinding those happy moments weve had. We arent like ordinary couple. We fight, we argue, we dont do sweet things to each other. But thats what i miss about us. You treat me not like you treat everybody else. I dont know the main reason why i chose what i chose. Nobodys perfect. I shouldve just accepted you for who you are. Theres no point on changing the one we love. We should just cherish them. But ive made a mistake. & youve moved on. Maybe. I think i should not be here anymore now. Everywhere i go, it reminds me of you. Even my room reminds me of you. I told myself, i hope it wouldnt be the next time for us. But i did it, again. Im sorry. Im sorry. I love you & you know it yourself. I dont have to say how much i love you or i miss you. Need you or want you because i bet youve known it all. Weve known each other for 2 years. & you know me more than i know myself. Same goes to me. But now, i dont know. I just hope things will get better. But maybe i just have to accept what ive decided to go with. But i miss you. & i still want you. :'(

Goodluck for finals. I know youll nail it. Youll pass with flying colours. With all the effort & hard work youve put through, i know youll get good results. Amin.

Untitled.

2009-12-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

Saya rindu awak gila babi.

Saya pun tahu awak rindu saya sebab tu awk video called saya.

Tapi kenapa kena ego?

:'(

Hello, plan untuk keluar hari ni cancelled, lagi sekali!

Multimedia Message System? :|

2009-12-06T23:57:00.001+08:00

I am so bored today. The plan on going out with Alie got cancelled due to his assignments. He got pretty much caught up with studies nowadays. & im always being abandoned by him because of that. & my finals going to end tomorrow while his, will be starting next week. & when i already get my freedom, he has to struggle for his finals. :( Sad? Yeah i know. We will be going out tomorrow & i cant wait. Sorry Azie, plan carlos will be held next time. Hehehe. I have not met my Alie for 4 days & its been too long for me. :'(

Oh well. While i was watching Beverly Hills of Chihuahua just now on channel 413, i got a text message. I was crossing my fingers, hoping for the text would be from my Alie. But know what? It came from Alie's dad! & i thought it was an empty message. Suddenly i opened it, Alie's dad sent me MMS! Yes, MMS! He sent me a freaking MMS. How cool is that? HAHAHA. He sent me the picture above. Yes, the exact picture above. :S Then i immediately forward it to Alie. Hahaha. According to Alie, his dad is over-friendly. In a good way maybe? He will call his Angah's girlfriend like everyday? :/ At first i thought Alie's dad didnt know about us. Well, after we broke up. But Alie's dad didnt know that we broke up. I guess Alie is good at keeping things to himself. :) Oh if you guys wonder, i didnt reply the MMS i got from Uncle Nordin. Heh.

Oh well, the picture above was taken when me, Nazrin & Azie went for a holiday in Cameron Highlands. Went there just to breathe the fresh air & to spend my time with Alie. It was a fun holiday. It was back in March 2008. & at that time, we were in a souvenir store. Just looking around on our last day in CH. :) I miss that time. Baby, when will you be bringing me there again? :D

Malu la pulak terfikir ayah Alie tengok ke semua gambar? Oh man, ada gambar lucah! -________-'

Babi.

2009-12-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tak nak tulis. Tapi terpaksa.

Pernah tak rasa apa aku rasa?

Tak kan?

Sebab tu kau beruntung.

Pernah tak dapat apa aku dapat?

Tak kan?

Sebab tu kau beruntung.

Pernah tak kau rasa semua ni?

Tak kan?

Sebab tu kau beruntung.

Tolong lah hargai apa kau ada.

Sebab aku tak ada apa apa pun.

Aku sekarang nak sangat lari jauh jauh.
Tak nak tengok sesiapa dah.

PENAT, FULL STOP!

Die. Dead. Died. Dying.

2009-12-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

Ive missed the presence of my grandmum already. She has gone back to Terengganu this afternoon with Ayah. Im kind of alone now, Mama is out having teh tarik with her cousins. Kakak is going out in a short while too. Clubbing. I wish i could follow. :|

I was thinking when i was in the toilet just now. Of course people will all die sooner or later. Its just a matter of when & how. If i were to die in 2 days, what would you guys do with me? Would you guys spend your time with me? Would you even remember me when im dead? How would you guys remember me? Are the things you remember positives or negatives? Would you even miss me? Would you even visit me at my grave? Would you read me Surah Yassin & Al-Fatihah? Would you forgive me for all my sins & bad things that i have done? Would you ...... Most importantly ... Would you still love me & remember me if i was gone?

Im sorry for everything. If i were to die today, i would want to spend my days with my loved ones. I would want to ask for forgiveness from Allah. I would want to go to special places with loved ones. I would want to let all out, everything that ive been keeping to myself all this while. & i would want to be with everybody that i know & know me. Before its too late, i want to say, I LOVE EVERYBODY, & you know who you are. Thanks for being my friends, family & loved ones. Thanks for everything. :')

I guess id stop here. If i dont stop, i know ill be babbling more, non stop. Oh btw, my Malaysian Studies paper was horrible. Enough said. Sorry if this post is quite emotional. <3

Theres nothing more important than loving myself.

2009-12-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

I should go back to Terengganu & stay with my grandmum for few days. I could enjoy the beach there, the weather. I miss the feeling of how much i love being there, in Terengganu. I should be far away from here, now. No reason. I should learn to be away from people. Be independant. I should learn to live without technology. Once i feel like doing it, ill do it. & i hope its gonna be sooner than soon. :) Btw, i miss my family, boyfriend & friends. Cant wait till the last paper then im off for a month holiday. Oh yea, i think i should get back to Malaysian Studies. Bye peeps. <3

Bing bing bing bong!

2009-12-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

Im sleepy.

Im lazy.

Im tired.

Im sleepy.

Im always hungry.

Im thirsty i could drink a 1 liter bottle every 1 minute.

Im having a backache.

Im having mood swings.

I hate you period symptoms.

I hate you PMS.

Damn you, damn damn damn!

Okay bye, my second lover is waiting. Wait for me Mister MS. :| *MS = Malaysian Studies. FYI.*

Sofia oh Sofia.

2009-12-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

As you all know *siapa tah yang baca blog ni :|*, i had my first paper for my finals this morning. Let me say, it wasnt that hard & it wasnt that easy too. I dont know whether i could get 70% & above or not. Ahh, whatever! Now its time for me to date Malaysian Studies. It would be even boring-er *i know that word doesnt exist*, i know. I hope Malaysian Studies wont be such a pain in the ass. I love you, Malaysia. So just be my lover, just for 2 days. Ok? Lol. :)

Err, i just got back from meeting my lover! Truth to be told, i know he cant live without me. Right, baby? Hik hik hikkk. :) I know im such a great girlfriend. Im willing to go all the way to Kota Damansara just to accompany him for dinner. Im sweet, right b? :D *okay dah jangan syok sangat* Sometimes i feel like, im the man & Alie is the woman. Get it? Im the boyfriend & he is the girlfriend? Like, id do something boyfriends would do to their girlfriends & Alie would just act like some stupid bitches. HAHAHA :) Okay kidding baby. I love you! Alie would act like some spoiled girlfriend & would have the oh-whatever-you-baby attitude. :| Thats what i wanted to say. Hihihihihi. Sorry b, i love you, still!

Okay dah la Sofia. Pegi la date dengan Malaysian Studies tu. HE'S waiting for you. -_____________-'

Okay bye, nak study.

2009-12-01T14:42:00.001+08:00

As you all know, tomorrow is my first paper for finals. & yet im still here, online-ing. Stupid Sofia, bad Sofia, bad bad badddddd. :| I think ill continue studying after watching Sekar. Ill be locked up in my room, studying in a silent & peaceful environment. Sounds nice, right? :D

To add more negative of me, i went out with Alie yesterday. Hish. Went to Mid Valley to have our late lunch & early dinner. & in the end, we packed the leftovers because we were too full. :S I can still feel my stomach is stuffed with yesterday's meal. HAHAHA :) It was raining heavily yesterday. I was nearly get strucked by lightning when i reached home, wanted to get out of the car. How frightening is that? & the boyfriend wasnt being a nice boyfriend. :'( Luckily he apologized. Heh. Oh & his dad called me, twice in a row. Cool ey? But i think i was a bit 'cengkerik' with Alie's dad. HAHAHAHAHHA :|

Moving on, i received a bad news from my sister. Our step grandmother, Tok Mi has just passed away early this morning. I know im not really close to her, but shes still like my grandmother. Few of our representatives from KL is going back to Terengganu for it. Al - Fatihah to her. & please, pray for her everybody. Takziah to Aunty Nor's family.

P/S : Wish me luck for tomorrow's paper. May the force be with me. Semoga Allah simpan segalam ilmu yang bakal dihafal sebentar nanti. Amin. Semoga keajaiban berlaku juga. :|

Study study, finals!

2009-11-30T12:07:00.000+08:00

Hello, I am currently in the studying mode.

I know im lame.

Everybody is having their semester break while ill be having my finals in 2 days.

-______________-'

First paper - Introduction to Business - 2nd December

Second paper - Malaysian Studies - 5th December

Third paper - General Language for Training - 7th December

then, HOLIDAYYYYYYYY for a month. :)

Okay, got to continue studying now. Bye.

P/S : Wish me luck! :)

Boo - ring!

2009-11-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

Had a great Eid Adha with extended family.

Went for lunch at Mama Chik's

Tea at Che Yah's &

Early dinner with Baby<3 at KLCC before he left for CH

It was a great gathering just now. *Got to see Syasya after soooooooo long! :) Sya, Ofy nak ikut pegi Jakarta!*

Me : Ma, ofy nak pegi dulu. Everybody can fit in one car kan?
Mama : Nak pegi jumpa Alie la tu? *while looking at Kakak*
Kakak : Biar lah diaaaa. *while smiling & half laughing. lol*
Me : Okay, bye everybody!

HAHA, alie kata Mama comel. :)

& now im home with Mok & Boboy.

Everybody is out for a karaoke session with the cousins.

Am too lazy & tired to follow.

Baby, i miss you already!<3

Blow me a kiss.

2009-11-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

To me, its all his fault.

To him, i cant understand him & i always spoil his mood.

So whats the solution?

I guess ill just sit back, relax & let him be. :)

Not because i dont love you, its because i love you too much.

P/S : Kesian, you duduk hostel sorang sorang. Takpe lah, if sempat, ill come visit you tomorrow evening. Jangan naughty naughty. :|

PP/S : Btw, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all. :)

Sofia Farhana Mohsen

Have you guys heard about The Gossip & Art vs Science?

Berbahasa Melayu.

Will you promise me?

Hello, BloggerLoves.

My own perfect people!

0216am.

November.

Happy 19th, Nurazihanie Mahamood.

Bullsh*t!

Last man.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!

AFTER A MONTH.

BBS ; Be Back Soon.

GBS FOR LIFE!

I miss you.

Thursday + GBS = Fun!

True love story.

M is for Mother.

When In Rome.

Finals over!

Merepeeeeeeeeek kerepek kentang.

*HUGS*

Azihanie has done it!

It is time, maybe.

Finals for second sem.

By courtesy of Tumblr. :)

Marry me.

Favourite guy in the world!

Stop for a while.

:/

The best! :)

Happy 19th to Moi. :)

APRIL ALREADY!

Positivity.

Everything is good, so far. :)

Im a good pretender.

Chin up, shoulders back.

Emo lagi. -.-

Reminiscing old times - Part II

Reminiscing old times. :')

Emotional.

Friday, 19th March.

Reunited, SofiArliNazrin.

How? How? :(

Superb Saturday.

Pretend first then only i am gonna be just fine!

Life is complicated.

Strength to believe.

Thank you.

Bestfriends.

Biggest stalker, stay with me forever please? :)

Youre my source of happiness, youre the soul that brings out the best of me.

Same person.

A long but not so good one.

Alligator.

GBS + Nazrin + Arlina.

KT was awesome!

Kuala Terengganu, kampung halaman.

Ketakutan.

Adios.

Stupid, dumb, idiot. :D

February it is.

The truth.

Maybe its because im irresistable. :)

Kawan baik ; lelaki.

Emosi.

Rebellious.

Current Addiction : Vodka Bottles.

SFM.

Boo-hoo!

2010 it is.

2009 - A year full of drama, experience.

Down.

Hate, Miss, Love. At the same time.

Tumblr, im in love with you.

Soon.

I have found a new love.

2009 is coming to an end.

Hello :)

HUGS